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doorgunnerjgs

Well, my 66th birthday has come and gone (on April 1st) and life goes on. Not always as I have envisioned it at this stage of my life but one day succeeds the next (so far).


I have not been as active on my clan forum or online with the 360. This has been for a variety of reasons, but the two big ones are my daughter and her family and my cancer.


Our daughter has tried to commit suicide twice in the last 3 months with the last time 1 and half months ago. The first time was just before my brother-in-law died of cancer at the end of January. He was only 39 years old and died from cancer (Melanoma). He had lost his brother to the same disease only 3 months before.


At that time, we had 4 of our son-in-law and daughter's kids staying with us because of her first suicide attempt.


Her second attempt was about 6 weeks ago. So for the last 4 out of 6 weeks, we have had the grandkids again.


I'll have to tell ya', having kids from 12 down to 2 1/2 is a little much for old folks like us! Plus having to worry that she might try again, and perhaps succeed doesn't make it any easier.


In addition to that, some of you have known part of the story and for your support, I am grateful. I have been half-heartedly fighting thyroid cancer for 14 years now. I have had four surgeries for the cancer. The first to remove a goiter the size of a softball behind my sternum (breast bone) and the second to remove the rest of the thyroid (both in 1995). I have had three radioactive iodine ablation (burnout) treatments. Continued testing of certain blood levels that indicate how the cancer is progressing (slow though it is) and innumerable CT scans, MRI's, PET scans, and radioactive iodine full body scans.


Four years ago (2005), I had to have small nodule (6 mm) removed from my right lung that proved to be metastasized thyroid cancer and about 2 years ago another nodule was found in my left lung during a routine CT scan. After a second CT scan and radioactive, full body scan it too turned out to be thyroid cancer. So that was removed in 2007.


Now, tests are indicating that there might be another one someplace. The CT scan I had did not find it but a full body scan with radioactive iodine will be done in the next week or two, and the probability is that it will find another nodule.


After dealing with my brother-in-law's cancer that killed him so quickly and at such a young age, it is easier to deal with my slow growing, controllable (so far) kind. But it sure is a pain in the a** to have to continually be affected by it.


Bottom line is that I don't always feel like posting, blogging, or playing and when I do, I can sometimes be a little testy or at best, quiet.


So, have a good life, enjoy your significant others and children (if any), and don't put off to tomorrow what you could be enjoying today.

Comments (17)

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DEEP_NNN·
Thanks for the update and the good advice.\r \r We don't know what we've got till it's gone.\r \r We never wish more for the things we could have done, when the day comes that we can't do them anymore.\r \r Two of life's very hard to swallow pills.\r \r I'm hoping you see easier days ahead.
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RogueRedneck·
Wow, DG. That is a lot to deal with. I hope things get better for you and I really hope your daughter sees what all she has to lose and how her actions are affecting her family. If you need anything, let me know.
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J-Cat·
thoughts and prayers with you and yours\r
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doodirock·
DG, you sir are a fantastic human being. Even through all this your writing shows an up beat side and general understanding of what matters in life. I only hope I have half the courage that you do when Im 66. Keep hanging in there. \r \r doodi
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Devonsangel·
I don't know what to say. I'm glad you shared this and you have my prayers for what they are worth from both Dastard and me. Above all else take care of yourself! You are a valued member here.
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hilskie·
DG...take care...know that we all love you, and our prayers are with you, and your family! A family member who tries to commit suicide, is a different kind of stress...unlike any I ever imagined I'd have. How luck your daughter has you and the rest of your family, and especially those grandkids...they crave the consistency and strength you and their grandmother show. How lucky they are to have you...and vice versa. :D
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TheDastard·
DG...I didn't realize what was going on. If there is anything DA or I can do, just ask. You've been missed...I hope you can hang out a little and get some support here, or find something in your life that gives you a bit if a break. Prayers.
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davidicusxx·
Happy birthday retired warrior. I hope you and your family do well this year.
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madwoman·
My thoughts and prayers to you and yours. I don't know you well, only what I've seen you post and I think I played with you a handful of times but I truly feel for you and yours. Take care and God bless.
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DixieBelle·
Prayers heading up for you, your daughter, and your family, friend.
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selden007·
God bless y ou DG, ou are stronger then most. Keep fighting and ginvine the support to your family. You know you always have a home here and your always welcome to come here if you need an escape or just to rant. My family and I will be sending prayers your way!
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H2Daddy·
Prayers headed your way.
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waterboy·
Best of luck to you and yours, DG! We will be thinking about you.
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KidMach·
Dang! Sorry to hear about all that is going on. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers!
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chilligan·
Best wishes to you and all of your family, fellow warrior. Know we are out here thinking of you and hoping to see you in better times soon.
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LtBlarg·
Door Gunner.. I hope and pray that things will turn out ok.
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DaRedneck·
Dang DG. All I can say is I feel for ya and will add you and your family in my prayers. Keep your chin up.