Anxiety

I've always been the kind of person that gets worked up about things...its my nature, I get torqued up about something and hold it in and get really anxious about it.

This week its the riding test for my motorcycle course.

I've been doing pretty average in it for someone that has never been on a bike before, and I have to say, I really love the way it feels to ride a bike.

Here is the downside.

There are always two rider coaches for the class when it comes to actual ride-time.   One guy has been there the whole time and he is demanding but ina  way that makes you relaxed.  The other guy is much the same way.  Last night we had a sub for the second guy and this guy is demanding and energetic.  The only problem being that if you don't get somethign right..personally he made me feel shitty about it. 

We practiced swerving last night, and you know what, I only got to do it 4 times...4 times...total, and I was admittedly anythign but smooth in how I did it, but I didn't drop the bike, I did it safely and I got where I needed to go.  And I can't help but thing if this guy offered me up something other than "wow that was sloppy" I might have started improving.  Doing a swerve in second gear, while probably not a big deal for someone that has been riding for more than 6 hours, its kind of a big deal for me.  One week ago I had never even sat on a bike, so the input I got from this guy has only managed to make me more anxious about tomorrow night and the riding test.  I mean, the rational part of me thinks I'll do ok, but there is now his voice in my head letting me know I am "kinda sloppy".    Hopefully tomorrow I won't have to deal with him because the original guy is back and he is more easy going. 

If I pass, I get my license waiver in a few weeks and I will be happy.

The whole thing with the class is that even though you have a whole parking lot to practice in, you only do small portions of it...with 12 other people on bikes..there is no real feeling of having space.  Its hard to describe.  I can't help but think it will be easier to actually ride on a road.  Having to rely on cones to simulate turns and what not verus a actual turn, or cars or anything else makes it hard for me personally to really "feel" it.

Either I pass or I don't.  Not the end of the world.  If I do for some reason fail, I can retake it in time.   Or I will just go to the DMV and do it the old fashioned way. 

Either way, Saturday my wife and I are going to go bike shopping.   I have been looking at some 2005 Honda Sabre's and bikes such as that.  There is a place near me that apparently has instock new 2007 Honda Sabre Spirit Flames, which look nice.

Yes I have decided not to get a sport bike, I am just way to short for those to be a rational first bike choice.  So I cam going to go Cruiser or Standard for my first bike.