Letting Go...

I've been thinking about the whole daddy situation for a while now.  The question I've been asking myself is, "Do I really need to meet my father?"  After really thinking about it I think that I really don't.  First of all my father knew about me and to my knowledge didn't try to see me.  My mother didn't take care of my at all so I was sent to live in an orphanage when I was a baby.  That would have been his opportunity to step in bu t he didn't.  So my parents made their choices.  They both decided not to take care of me. Now that I'm an adult I don't need them to take care of my anymore so why am I worried about them.

I realize that knowing this man won't change who I am.  It won't change how I feel about myself.  The fact is trying to track him down will more than likely end in heartache.  As it is my mother and brother are no longer talking to me.  Not that I noticed much since they don't talk to me much anyway.  I've already gone through so much lately I don't think I can take anymore drama.

So I've decided to leave the past in the past and keep on moving forward.