Life After Unemployment?

DLogan

Shared on Fri, 04/30/2010 - 17:49

So I am now unemployed. I had forgotten how much I dislike looking for a job and how hard it can be.  I think that is one of the reasons why I worked at my last job so long.  I didn't like it but it was comfortable.  The bad part is I let myself get too comfortable and didn't take care of myself.  So I made a bold is not very well planned out move and quit.  It was very unexpected even to me.  I didn't intend to quit. I went to work that morning thinking that things were ok.  I was trying to get back into the swing of things after having been out for a month and not having done any QA since January. 

I know I wasn't working at the normally expected lightning speed and efficiency that they like in my office but I thought I was doing OK.  I foolishly thought they would cut me some slack for a couple of weeks.  You know let me wipe the sleep out of my eyes and get refocused.  I had been there for a week and no one said anything about my performance.  Then on Monday I get called in an office with my manager, co-worker and HR person.  I then took a 30 minute tounge lashing about how I was not working up to their standards.  Questioned on every minute of the day for the past week.  They were asking me what I was doing on this day at this time.  I don't know about most people but that's not the kind of thing that I typically remember.  Hell I was home all day yesterday and I couldn't tell you what I did let alone what time I did it.  It was like a scene from Law and Order.  All that was missing was the bright light shinging down on me and someone offering me a soda.

Right in the middle of the interrogation I just started to feel trapped.  I just wanted to run.  To make it all stop.  I couldn't take it anymore.  I probably should have listened to my therapist and stayed on disability for another two weeks.  I am always so hard headed.  I did what I wanted to do and I went back.  Maybe one of these days I'll learn to listen to others.  So one minute I am being yelled at by my boss and the next I'm screaming I quit and storming out of the room.  Wait...that's not the right work.  More like running.  I just wanted to get away.  I made it back to my desk and started grabbing my things.  I I realized that I could not find my keys.  That's right about when the panic attack started.  I remember in the middle of it the HR person telling me to settle down and thinking "Now that's a really fucked up thing to say to me right now."

Luckily I've made some decent contacts over the years.  Networking really does pay off.  I have some interviews lined up. Hopefully I'll land something soon.  The last thing I want to do is get put out of my apartment and have to start over again.  I really don't miss living in the ghetto at all. 

Comments

TANK's picture
Submitted by TANK on Fri, 04/30/2010 - 17:58
Sounds like you're better off not working there. GIven how much time you spend at work every day, it's not worth working someplace you're not happy. So head up, move on to bigger and better things.
slowthumbs's picture
Submitted by slowthumbs on Fri, 04/30/2010 - 21:50
hang in there. you'll find something. you do NOT need a job where they cause you to have a panic attack. no one needs that. Sounds like the HR person was not doing their job either. they are supposed to make sure that that doesn't happen. they have no other function than that.
meemoos's picture
Submitted by meemoos on Fri, 04/30/2010 - 23:49
sounds like they should get in trouble---and pay u for "mental anguish".
J-Cat's picture
Submitted by J-Cat on Sun, 05/02/2010 - 14:42
yeah... it's ashitty place to work... what were you doing on this day at this time? Bullshit.

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