DLogan
Shared on Fri, 04/30/2010 - 17:49So I am now unemployed. I had forgotten how much I dislike looking for a job and how hard it can be. I think that is one of the reasons why I worked at my last job so long. I didn't like it but it was comfortable. The bad part is I let myself get too comfortable and didn't take care of myself. So I made a bold is not very well planned out move and quit. It was very unexpected even to me. I didn't intend to quit. I went to work that morning thinking that things were ok. I was trying to get back into the swing of things after having been out for a month and not having done any QA since January.
I know I wasn't working at the normally expected lightning speed and efficiency that they like in my office but I thought I was doing OK. I foolishly thought they would cut me some slack for a couple of weeks. You know let me wipe the sleep out of my eyes and get refocused. I had been there for a week and no one said anything about my performance. Then on Monday I get called in an office with my manager, co-worker and HR person. I then took a 30 minute tounge lashing about how I was not working up to their standards. Questioned on every minute of the day for the past week. They were asking me what I was doing on this day at this time. I don't know about most people but that's not the kind of thing that I typically remember. Hell I was home all day yesterday and I couldn't tell you what I did let alone what time I did it. It was like a scene from Law and Order. All that was missing was the bright light shinging down on me and someone offering me a soda.
Right in the middle of the interrogation I just started to feel trapped. I just wanted to run. To make it all stop. I couldn't take it anymore. I probably should have listened to my therapist and stayed on disability for another two weeks. I am always so hard headed. I did what I wanted to do and I went back. Maybe one of these days I'll learn to listen to others. So one minute I am being yelled at by my boss and the next I'm screaming I quit and storming out of the room. Wait...that's not the right work. More like running. I just wanted to get away. I made it back to my desk and started grabbing my things. I I realized that I could not find my keys. That's right about when the panic attack started. I remember in the middle of it the HR person telling me to settle down and thinking "Now that's a really fucked up thing to say to me right now."
Luckily I've made some decent contacts over the years. Networking really does pay off. I have some interviews lined up. Hopefully I'll land something soon. The last thing I want to do is get put out of my apartment and have to start over again. I really don't miss living in the ghetto at all.
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Submitted by TANK on Fri, 04/30/2010 - 17:58
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