Someone in my life?

So I have had this profile up on a dating site forever.  I've not had too much luck with it.  I send messages to ladies and some of them respond but turn out not to be very intersted in my in a romantic way.  I wonder if I look "gay" enough for them.  It seems where I live women either look very girly or very butch.  There is not a lot of in between.  I think I'm in between although I am moving more towards looking girly these days.  I am kind of liking it.  Anyway, the girly girls seem to want to date the butch girls.  Although I am girly I reallay want to date someone who is girly also.

Well I recently decided to not be so caught up in lables.  I mean I am new to this whole lifestyle.  I should try a little of everything and find out what it is I really like right?  So I am trying to experience it all.  I have been talking to a lady from the dating site this week.  She is what I would consider butch.  I base this on her profile pictures and her demenor wen talking on the phone.  It's been really great talking to her so far.  She and I seem to have a lot of things in common.  The only bad part is that she doesn't live in my city.  She isn't too far away but I really wish I could meet someone that lived in the same city.  One of these days I guess.

One think about the lady I have been talking to that I am not sure I like is she is very much a top.  She told me when it comes to sex that she likes to give but not receive.  I do not know if I can live with that if we ended up in a monogomous relationship.  I really like to give and I'm not sure I could live without it.  I mean that's the best part about being with a woman.  If all I wanted to do was just get fucked I could keep dating guys.  But since I haven't gotten that far with her I am not going to worry about it.  I will make sure she knows my feelings on the subject before we do anything...if we do anything.

All this dating stuff is so hard.