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Defining an Ache

Em

Shared on Sat, 09/16/2006 - 12:55

Sometimes, theres this feeling I get that the only word I can find for is "ache".  It’s not necessarily an unpleasant feeling, although at times it deepens sharp and brief into a pain, then returns to its baseline hum.  It doesn’t affect my ability to function, or enjoy things that appear in front of me, or to concentrate on important tasks.  It somehow ….colors… my perception of things I see.  It’s not always there, shows up at the most unexpected times…at work…in the tub…playing halo…vacuuming.  A quote from a movie I saw recently keeps coming to mind, “The loneliness birds are laying stone eggs in my heart”.  But I don’t believe in movies:)

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medic113's picture
Submitted by medic113 on Tue, 10/17/2006 - 21:08
Every exposure to stimulus is a learning opportunity. Some opportunities are disregarded, some are life changing. Having the opportunity to decide (consciously or not) is what makes different than the apes. During the short time we chatted (after I kicked your butt!:)) at NYC, I came away with the KNOWLEDGE you are a good person that hit a speedbump in the roadway of life. As the Romans said - time and tide...
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Submitted by doorgunnerjgs on Sat, 09/16/2006 - 13:20
Since you're a nurse, I would guess you have already ruled out specific physical ailments. If it's a general feeling, it could be the "loneliness birds" which I think come with not just being alone, but also with a dissatisfaction with life as it is. It could be work, health, family, relationships, home, neighborhood, part of the country, or anything else that is coloring your outlook. I have no answers, only questions and observations. But know this, I have something similar at times and have never found a long term cure. Be well, be happy, and keep giving hugs, they have a way of coming back to you at the right times!
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Submitted by nomodifier on Sat, 09/16/2006 - 13:26
How boring would it be if we were estatic all the time. Feelings of melancholy are okay sometimes. Our societys preoccupation with BPD leaves most people to believe they need drugs if the are not happy all the time.
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Submitted by OldManRiver48 on Sat, 09/16/2006 - 13:44
The hurt seems to hold on longer than the good/positive feelings in our lives. I hope you can reach out for and feel the good from the things that are hurting you. Maybe they can lessen your struggles by reflecting on the good, I know its there. Hugsssss and best wishes.
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Submitted by codemonkey on Sat, 09/16/2006 - 14:19
I got an ache from mowing the lawn for three and a half hours (it was almost up to the knees). I'm not in pain, but I'm definately not in a happy mood either :) CodeMonkey
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Submitted by darth_chibius on Sat, 09/16/2006 - 14:41
i love you em!
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Submitted by DantezINFERNO on Sat, 09/16/2006 - 14:57
I loved you first Em! remember tough times don't last, tough people do.
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Submitted by LadyisRed on Sat, 09/16/2006 - 15:13
Hugs Em, hang in there.
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Submitted by Anonymous (not verified) on Sat, 09/16/2006 - 15:57
em i know where you are coming from, in fact i remember our conversation at the pool. i wish the tough times would be over. for both of us
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Submitted by StunGib on Sat, 09/16/2006 - 18:16
Remember Em, In Life There Is Pain, But Misery Is Optional....
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Submitted by Gatsu on Sat, 09/16/2006 - 20:21
hang in there girly. Mind over matter. You can be as happy or as sad as you want to be. Alot of it is the state of mind. If you ever need to talk. My ear is open.

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