When Did We Become So Dark...and Why?

I have been doing what every self-respecting gamer girl does - gaming.

I went from Fallout New Vegas to the Assassin's Creed 2 DLCs (yeah, thats right, the only reason I got Live was pretty much for DLC, thats how serious I am) and then into Fable III,

In between Fallout New Vegas and the Assassin's Creed 2 chapters I went and caught the lastest Harry Potter - Deadly Hallows.

So here is my latest problem.

Fallout New Vegas sort of depressed me. I tried to play it relatively heroic because being a hero, doing the 'right' or better thing is always hard. Being evil or mean or thoughtless is soooo easy I find it boring and repetitive. So, yah. Fallout New Vegas just doesn't have a good ending. There is bad...or bad...or bad...or...yeah, you get it. No good ending. The fact that I couldn't find a resolution that left me at peace was....OUCH. So, after having played Reach and having made the sacrifice and felt that "Man is noble at heart in the worst of times" experience it left me with...I hit the wall with New Vegas and it might have left a permanent frown line on my brow. Up to then I'd been lovin' it but now its sort of sour.

Then I went to see Deathly Hallows and something struck me in the movie that likely was because I already in a "dark" mood. Nobody steps up or rallies with these kids. Oh sure a few of the 'regulars' but most choose to cut these kids loose, leave them abandoned and isolated in their "cause". So their wandering in the wilderness and I am thinking "why"?Their "cause" is to somehow destroy Voldemort and free the world of his evil. C'mon people - you have evil and you have 3 kids prepared to stand up and deliver and what happens? Well, if you don't stand up - then your lying down - and the people lie down for the most part. I know, I know...its a movie but one thing about books and movies - they reflect us, they reflect our society and what we are willing to accept as credible. So maybe Part 2 will have a grand gesture but...isn't that shallow for it to come so late in the day? Art in any form is a mirror. A reflection of not who we really are but still - it is us. There can be no good ending when Part 1 shows us to be nothing short of cowardly and willing to sacrifice good.

So I walked out at the end of this movie, feeling a bit morbid. A movie, a game. A game with no resolution that isn't tainted with evil and a movie with people who would rather surrender what little is good or what little is hope and permit evil.

When did we become so dark? And why?

Have you really listened to how we talk to each other now? Oh, I don't mean just 'please' and 'thank you'  have hit the fan but really...kick back and think about how we really talk to each other. It sucks and its shameful. On a personal note I realized a little back that somewhere, somehow I'd become a pretty potty mouthed gamer girl. I don't when that happened, I don't know why. Does it even matter? I think I've decided that for me, for who I really want to be, it does. I am a strong person and I am a good person and think I just have to have the courage to be those things for real. I am tired of society dictating who I am because I am not convinced it knows what it is doing so why give in and permit it to define me? Maybe, I am seeing a light. It is small and it is distant but I hope that is what it is.  

Meanwhile - beyond my depression over society - I loved the DLC chapters for AC2. I missed Enzio more than I realized and was soooo happy to be back with  my monkey boy...ooops, I mean Enzio. And...I have played Fable 3 through once already and it was fun. Some problems but there always is with gaming but overall - it was fun.

I am going back - to gaming. Take care everyone and....be nice.