Day 2

Well it took forever for the pill take effect, plus it didn't help that I didn't have any breakfast this morning either.Everything was like it was before I started takeing the medication.I tried very hard to smile, crack a joke, but I just couldn't do it.I just felt numb all over again, I wanted to find someplace and hide to  the end of my shift.I worked as hard as I could stay on track on my job due to the fact Earl our idoit forklift driver quit a couple of weeks ago.The stress on me haveing to do my job and his is hard on me.It is very difficult to drive the forklift and unload trucks of paper and wrap pallets then put them in the rack.I have about 4 1/2 of that to do everyday.

At 12 pm I have to start getting ready to make deliveries, makeing sure my paper work is good and makeing sure I have what I need in stock.(I discovered long ago that the montly inventory that we do isn't always right.)I then have to pretty much put them together on a pallet and then load them onto my delivery truck.Which I hate driveing by the way.Anyhow......once that is all taken care of I leave for my deliveries and put up with asshole wanna be a cop security guards, gripe at idiots who keep putting shit in the way so I can't back into a alley way this big | |.I swear thats how big it feels when your trying to back into this place in a bob truck.Then fight traffic to get back to the plant only to find that you have 15 trucks waiting to be loaded!!!!

Ok now that I managed to get myself worked up again, its time to change the fucking subject, lets change it to something positive.I joined a bowling league and I have discovered I'm the worst bowler in the world.I bowled a 34, 42, and a 18.I could not stay out of the damn gutter for nothing, I tried everything I could remember from when I was a kid and was bowling around 170 - 190.So one the guys in my league suggested I get the bowling league card and buy this months special.20 games for 19.99, I thought about for a minute and said sure why not.I can use the card for practice games and try to figures out what I'm doing wrong.I managed to talk a guy at work into going out to the bowling alley with me since he has been bowling for in a league for a year and half.He meet me out there today after I kept making up excuses for not going.Its not like I tried to throw the ball like a baseball Tuesday night when I was bowling for the league.I had myself so worked up after bowling about four gutters in a row that I picked up the balll when it was my turn again and damn near threw it.I caught myself in the wind up and relized what I was about to do.I shook my head and bowled another gutter ball.

Well back to todays bowling practice.Bruce the guy from work that was helping me watched me bowl a couple for frames and told me what I was doing wrong.When I bowl I swing my arm towards the left like I'm slapping someone and I'm bowling entirely way to fast.I mean rolling a ball that weighs in at 16lbs 19 mph was not good at all.He said I need to bring my arm up like I'm shakeing someones hand or to reach for the sky with my right hand.So I tried it and it worked, so then I had to learn to slow down ball it was a bitch to do.I started to feel better about myself a little bit.I didn't feel the need to go and hide like I normally do.Hell I wasn't even all that embarrassed when I slipped and fell on my back.I laid there laughing.Normally I would get up and go home just knowing someone saw what I had done and was going to tease me about it.Or tell everyone they meet about the big dumb fat guy who fell on his back and looked like a whale out of water.I just laughed and asked the guy next to me if he got that on tape.