I smoked

I broke down and had a cigarette last night after my grandmother pissed me off, and I've had like five today. Shitty weekend; I'm not even going to get into it, it's just too much. I was doing really well up until yesterday... except for the grumpiness. That's the worst part of all this. I'm sick of being pissed off all the time. The least little thing sets me off on a tirade lately. I threw my controller across the room this morning because someone killed me in FEAR 2, and I raised hell last night when my son scored more kills than me in L4D on every level. In my defense though, he was being a shit. He kept running up ahead to take all the kills, unloading into the pile of zombies on my pipe bombs, and shooting my gas cans when I threw them down. He even once threw down a molotov between us so I couldn't kill any of the enemies. I was also trying to help my wife, who doesn't play that much, while he was racking up the kills. I played two games then just shut it off and left him hanging. I'm just tired of being an asshole. I'm short and gruff with my wife, and we've argued almost every other night for the past couple of weeks. <sigh> Hopefully after I quit and I'm done with the medicine everything will level off. Surely I won't have to spend the rest of my life pissed off. Right?