Jumping at Shadows....

J-Cat

Shared on Mon, 04/27/2009 - 08:46

My husband says that my biography should be entitled "I Feel Bad."  I am oversensitive to the feelings of others. I see others in pain, I act. Even if I only perceive that they are hurting, facts be damned. I see injustice, and move on it, although those around me don't see it/care. Combine this with a natural zealousness and you have a potent combination. If there is a decision to act or to not act: I choose "to Act".  I'm a talker, so I share and expect others to act with me.  My boundless need to collaborate can be tiresome for the introverted. Ask my poor husband!  ;)

The result?  I have the capacity to create amazing things. And I have the same capacity to piss off those around me. Thankfully,  am introspective enough to know that in my desire for change, I can alienate others. And so, I have learned the "Art of the Apology." A younger me may not have been able to acknowledge faults. We all have them, but when you are me, you fail in a wider stage.

But, failure is a good thing. I am unafraid of it. Embrace teh suck as it were, cause we all suck. If you do not see your own personal suckage, look harder cause everyone else does.  So where does this leave me? Now, today?  Wonderful, Wondering, Wandering. Life is such an amazing journey. We are fortunate and blessed to be able to walk this path that we are given.

So: today. I will be less horrible and I will be bold and strong in the attempt.  And you?

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ekattan's picture
Submitted by ekattan on Mon, 04/27/2009 - 08:50
I will be lazy and inefficient. It's Monday.
pearly_54's picture
Submitted by pearly_54 on Mon, 04/27/2009 - 08:57
Hunny, you are not horrible! Far from it! I luv you just the way you are. I got your hug from Durty..... And returned it.
TDrag27's picture
Submitted by TDrag27 on Mon, 04/27/2009 - 09:08
ekattan - I'm in your party.
JeepChick's picture
Submitted by JeepChick on Mon, 04/27/2009 - 09:25
Today I will do the opposite, since I am quite the opposite in nature. I will not gloss over the woes of my fellow man. I will try to lend an ear... and undivided attention for at least 5 minutes.
Snuphy's picture
Submitted by Snuphy on Mon, 04/27/2009 - 10:40
It's Monday. I am fully embracing the suck.
Maxxie's picture
Submitted by Maxxie on Mon, 04/27/2009 - 18:33
You were meant to be a superhero. Why do you resist yoru calling - it's your gift, it's your curse. :D
Puppy's picture
Submitted by Puppy on Mon, 05/04/2009 - 17:26
This is actually just the sort of thing I need to hear occasionally. It's why I see a psychiatrist (well, partially anyway). I am a perfectionist and control freak and when things I do aren't perfect, I get mad as hell. Like learning a new choreography or working on a piece of art, I can fly into a frenzy if I don't get it right and FAST! And I go off on other people for bothering to ask me 'what's wrong?'. That is bad bad bad. So like you, I have had to learn to apologise in a most humble manner for screaming at someone who did not deserve it or taseing them, or emasculating them with a Raised Eyebrow (tm) and a well aimed verbal stab. I eat so much crow, I should learn some decent recipes for it... Obviously, you're a strong woman. That leads to strong opinions. And sometimes, even to learning to read and being burned at the stake. Careful with that combination of ovaries and profuse grey matter. Folks won't understand.. even in this 'enlightened' age...

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