Change...

and not of the politcal kind.

I've felt a bit disconnected and out of sorts for several months.  My personal economy, my family, social circle... they are all evolving at a fast rate and I am doing the best I can to hang on and not lag out of life. 

It's not growing up... it's not a lifestyle change... I've come to realize it's just a progression of my life.  One in many ways I can't control.  There are things that are fading away that I can't, or don't have time, to continue. 

"I have become comfortably numb."

These next few months I shall be charging down paths I haven't seen before, or it's been so long they are new to me. 

Gaming:  I have zero cash flow for the new releases I crave.  My trade in stash is depleted.  I must rely on Gamefly to deem me worthy to receive Fallout 3, Gears 2, and COD WaW.  Fable II was worth the every penny of my last bit of trade-in credit.  I wish I could call a time out on new releases so I have time to catch up.

Work: School system continues to grow, even though staffing is being held back.  That means more work well outside of my job description (and pay grade).  This morning I noticed a clean spot on my desk, just long enough to realize that I am in constant catch-up mode.  I've also taken on a 2nd job at Gamestop, Christmas cash is needed otherwise Santa shall disappoint.  That means both my husband and I are working two jobs.  It feels a bit unreal.

Family: I haven't seen my last surviving Grandparent in 7 years.  She is slowly withering away with small strokes taking her memories and motor functions.  It's a gut feeling that I need to see her, that even though she won't recognize me or my children, that this Thanksgiving is it.  In addition to her, there are 3 new babies from cousin's that "got grown" in those 7 years and have familes of their own now.   I'm seeing my parents age with ease, but with also with a quickness that is startling. 

Kids:  My kids as you all know are amazing.  My daughter can finally have real conversations.  My son reads at a speed that I envy, and still has excellent comprehension.  Ballet, and Cub Scouts, birthday parties and school events... they are taking up my weekends.  

Work, Dinner, Family Time, Clean, Sleep... and repeat.   The life of a Wife and Mom has never seemed less fabulous. 

So, I apologize for my absence.  I sure miss all of you guys, in game, online, in sitechat. 

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