Alcoolism isnt always to kill emotions

I mean do you come to life with the flaws made into your family. Im not drinkin because i wanna get rid of my problems, i drink socially and i have lots of fun but the problem is if i drink one beer i need to drink ten more to feel better.

Im not saying its cool to be me , i live with what i am and i love it , but i sincerely want sometimes to drink only one glass of beer or something.

At the first sip i cant resist to the second glass , and i get drunk , i cant drink alchool normally.
Now i need to try again on stoppin drinkin and gettin cofee and fukin virgin ceasar's

im 28 i want a familly, i want a good job , i wanna live a life fully , becoming a kind of "sage" is important to me, working on me , my soul and my mind, its an important thing to me .
understanding myself is important .
becoming what i really am is too ...
its a lot of job .

hey thanks for the time took to read this