11.17.2011

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Week 1 of MW3 has passed, and so far, so good! I’m having fun playing it. I’m being careful to limit the amount of time I spend playing it at once so I won’t get burned out on it too fast. However, this is making it take twice as long to unlock the weapon I’m after. 

I’ve been rather amused with the trouble my clan has been having with the companion app called Elite.  Some of them can’t get it to work, some can’t get it to work consistently, some still don’t understand what it does – I get belly laughs from the conversations in the forum.

Apparently, one of the problems is that they can’t use the term pwn (as in 2old2pwn) for the clan name. I’ve tried to very subtly communicate that I am not having this problem, but I don’t want step on anyone’s toes. The fact is, I haven’t had a single problem with it since launch. And, every day I create a 2o2pwn clan, and then I delete it, just to make sure it’s still working. But again, I’m feeling a little sheepish about telling them this, because I don’t know why it’s working so well for me, and not them.

I’m also feeling a bit embarrassed, well maybe regretful is a better word, that my k/d is just killing the clan total. They’re all very nice, and I don’t think they’d ever say “get out – you’re ruining us”, but I’m starting to think that maybe I should. Not leave the clan, mind you, just get out of the Elite clan thing. I was excited about being able to participate in the competitions and stuff, but I guess I can lone-wolf it for the good of the group. Either way, I’ll probably take several days to think it over.

I just don’t want to mess anything up for them, and I’m still trying to find my footing within the clan. I was just finally starting to get comfortable, and now there’s this whole new dynamic. I don’t know if it’s just that people had stopped playing Black Ops, or maybe wouldn’t play Black Ops, but now that the new COD game has come out, there’s all these people playing it, and I don’t know who’s in the clan or from 2old2play, and who just happens to be hanging out in the room we’re playing in. And, since this goes both ways (they don’t know me either), umm…. no one talks to me. I think, in fact, I get forgotten about most of the time, (when I play with “the big group” in ground war). I mean, there’s 18 people in there, someone’s gonna get lost in the shuffle, I get that. And most of these guys have known each other for a long time. I’m not blaming them at all. I’m just saying it’s really hard for me to get my footing this way. I’m not a big talker. Unlike most of the women who play these sorts of games, I don’t need to be constantly monopolizing the conversation, nor do I have an inner drive that requires me to repeatedly remind them of my “girlness”, or the ever common (yawn) equality “I’m as good as the guys” issue.

So the only things that really stand out about me are that I am quiet, and a bit reserved, and I’m not trying to be as good as the guys. But you see how this makes it easy to get lost in the shuffle…..

I enjoy playing the game regardless, and we have smaller groups playing too, so I’ve been sticking closer to them lately, but I do miss the core group I had been playing Black Ops with. I figure in a month or two a lot of “the extras” will be burned out on it, and things will go back to normal, and in the meantime, I’m meeting some fun new friends. 

This week’s shout-out goes to new friend "Gopher G"  (you know who you are)  – “Be Aggressive – Be-be Aggressive!”