Do you ever just feel like....

running away?  I've had my good days and bad.  I try to stay optimistic about my future.  I try to ignore the intense lonliness I feel sometimes.  I play with my kitty.  She LUVS me!!!!  I have tried reaching out to friends, but some of the things I want to talk about, I just can't.  And, being the sorta loner person that I am, I really don't have many friends, at least those I can trust.  I am getting some attention from the match.com thing.  I think it is too scarey to meet up with some of these people.  They seem nice enuf, but......  I luv the neat peeps I have met on this website.  I even have DSmooth on my Facebook!  Too funny.  But, for some reason, I still feel like running. 

I got a call from my oldest brother the other day.  What a surprise!  He is in Arizona, retired, and working an "after retirement" job in real estate.  Real Estate!!!  He is a chemical engineer!  But, like me, he has been overwhelmed with various things throughout his life, and now wants to do something that he enjoys.  He has found a wonderful lady that I luv to death.  She is also a nurse, but I met her before she was.  He's been married twice, had several "meaningful relationships", and now has his soul mate.  I am so happy for him.  Now, Arizona is a place I haven't been to for many, many years.  Hmmm.  A trip out west this spring?  Perhaps.  I would like to go to the coast and see Bill and Aubyn again.  On the other hand, I am anxious to see Dave and Shannon's new baby.  It's your turn to come here, Dave!  Just trying to see how I can "run" without actually running.  Maybe this is a plan brewing......