early morning thoughts

I just checked....I am the only one on this website atm. Wow! I guess I am up early today. Nothing unusual....early morning insomnia strikes again. And a headache. Again.

It seems I have slipped back into the rut of real life once again. I don't particularly like it here. It's dull and uncomfortable.

I took hubby to a party with my nurse friends and hubbies/sig others last night. He mingles well. He actually disappeared for quite a while getting into those conversations that I hate so much. At least he had the opportunity to talk at others, instead of me. I, on the other hand, was having a huge attack of social anxiety. It feels a little like claustrophobia (sp?), at least last night it did. The house was small, but then, so was the party. The hostess is very loud. It's just her nature. And, she likes to be the center of attention. That's ok. But, for at least the first half hour I was having a bit of a panic attack cuz I felt crushed and could hear all these voices, especially hers, bouncing off the walls and inside my head. A glass of wine helped some. And, finding a corner with my back to the wall helped a little more. Man, I am sooooo glad I didn't have that experience at the LAN. Wide open spaces help, even if there are monitors and gamers all over the place. Altho, I did need to escape the noise now and then.....

Question of the Day: Why?????

Answer:  Because!