It's soooo hard

What?  No, not that!  I mean my current situation with the decision making and all.  I brought home boxes last night, and left them in the car.  I know.....  But, I need to think this out a little better, and will talk to my shrink this morning.  Yeh, she supports me.  I will talk it out....what to do, how to do it, etc.  Yes, it does sound like I've made up my mind.  I guess I have.  I just need a gentle push and lots of support.

I found the perfect little loft apartment on the other side of town, closer to work.  I'm going to see it Saturday.  My head is swirling with what is involved in separating from a spouse.  Things like address changes, direct deposit, bank accounts, to say the very least.  I'm sorta overwhelmed just thinking about it.  I have my friend, Beth, who has been married and divorced 3 times, guiding me a bit.  And pushing, too.  She's a sweetheart, but when she says 'you gotta do this today", it's a little hard for me.  Yep, I'm a wimp.  I also don't want to hurt anyone.  Hubby and I have sorta "made up", but not really.  We are being civil to each other, and actually speaking, but not much.  I really think he knows I am leaving.  All he had to do was tell me to go......  And he did.

Enuf of my whining for today.