Real Life sux sometimes

Ah, me.  Life can sometimes come at you hard, and I have had some day today.  First of all, the insurance company (adjuster?) finally came to the decision that I was somehow at fault for this accident that happened to me while I was sitting still, minding my own business, stuck in traffic on the E-way.  I have been found at fault for "following too close", even tho I was hit from behind.  They say there is not evidence to back up that I was even hit at all!  OMFG!    And they called me at work to tell me that!  The whole day started falling apart, then.  By 2:00 I was on the edge, and by 3:00 I had a great, big meltdown.  It wasn't just the accident, but another day from hell clinic -wise.    Put all of that together, and I was sent home at 4:00 cuz I was a basket case and virtually useless.  So, smack me in the face by placing blame on me where I don't deserve it, then smack me again by making my work day impossible.  I have no details, cuz it is too hard to explain.  But, to generalize, I had everything in this entire world that could go wrong, did, and it was just way too much with no help, at all.  I finally called the charge nurse (yes, we talk on our individual phones now!) and told her I needed a time out, NOW!!!!!!  That got her attention.  Enuf of that.

Thinking much harder about legal separation/divorce.  After the 1st of the year, I may begin to make more concrete plans.  I have places to go, people to see, and things to do, and I don't want to have that "other thing" to worry about.  And I would like to ease up on work, too.  Another job?  Maybe, altho, if it wasn't so damn demanding and difficult, I would have a very hard time leaving.  Right now?  Don't ever want to go back, but I will.  Tomorrow morning.  So, I have a lot to think about the next couple of weeks.  And this weekend?  Busch Gardens Christmas Show.  And next?  We shall see.