Strange....

I reread my blog from yesterday and started thinking, hey, there is more!  I have done the research on some of the stuff.  But.......  Anyways, hubby has developed "essential tremor", a benign, unpreventable condition that causes him to "shake" during certain activities.  It has affected his whole upper body, I think, including his voice.  This frustrates him a lot, cuz things he used to be able to do are now more difficult.  He has a terrible time writing or typing.  And, strangely, sometimes it is there, and sometimes it is not.  He has lost 15 lbs in the last few months, without trying.  He forgets to eat or he is not hungry.  I think I am starting to lose weight, too.  That's a different story, tho!

Behavior changes?  Up until the last several months we have been 2 very independent individuals, seeking each other out when the need arrives, for whatever reason.  He was the "househusband" and I worked and tended our grandchildren.  Now, he does little in the house.  That's ok.  I can handle that.  But he has gone and tore out most of the garden.  He just decided that he didn't want to can tomatoes this year.  In a previous blog I said I don't can tomatoes, and I don't.  He did not remember that, and expected me to do it, even tho I have to work and he is doing, what?  I have not canned in, uh, prolly 20 years.  It became a huge issue and he just tore out all the tomato plants.  And, he wants my attention all the time!  No detail here, but he is very clingy and needy and almost desparate for me to be sitting right there on the couch with him every waking moment.  Doing what?  Listening to him talk on and on about whatever is in the news, repeating himself over and over, and not really paying any attention to me, at all.  Sounds like I'm complaining, doesn't it!  Sorta.  But mostly, it is concern, well, for both of us.  He is going down the tubes, and I don't know how to handle that.

We will be seeing that doctor very soon.