Prayer

Hi, want to take a second to ask you all to pray for me. Today has been a very difficult day, the whole week leading up to this weekend has been very very hard. I know Valentines is a made up holiday, however, this is the first without Christie and I will be honest,  my heart is having no chance right now. I dropped the kids off at daycare and I was crying by the time I got to the car. Christie's work is on the way to my work, so I stopped by.
I stopped by so that I could look her in the ey and tell her that I love her and that I miss her. I told her that I was so sorry for all that I had done to get us where we are. I told her that I forgave her for all that she has done. I wanted her to know that I love her and I truly forgive.
Through it all, she didn't say , well, anything. That's OK. She has told me plenty of times she doesnt love me anymore, so I don't expect it. I am sorry for rambling.

Father, I am on my knees Lord Loving you. you have had me in your arms and continue to carry me. Father I am sorry if my heartache is seen as doubt of my conviction that you are carrying me. I know you are in control and have a plan.
God, I humbly ask you to continue to help me, guide me, help me to show your light. Help me Father to be the BEST Daddy I can, to continue to be the best man I can. Father, I am struggling with descisions, please give me wisdom to know when it is you talking to me, to know when to listen and when to act.
Father thank you so much for all you do.
I love you
In Jesus Name.
Nash