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Em

Due to the fact that I wake now by 730 am now matter how late I stay up, there is ample time to ruminate on, well, pretty much everything.  This morning as I do the dishes, go through stacks of mail and make new stacks, I am thinking about the natural progression of life in general.  This is it.  Right now.  This is my life.  My life is not next week, or next month, or when this or that bill gets paid.  It is right now.  Am I happy?  Yes.  Are there losses in store for me? Most definitely.  Am I losing something RIGHT now? Yes.  Was it worth it?  Absolutely.  The past year has shown me many emotional highs and lows. Reaffirmation that all things, good and bad, will come to an end eventually.  Nothing prevents the inevitable change that occurs, in hearts and minds.  It is what you absorb from that change and incorporate into the RIGHT NOW that makes you who you are.  Am I capable of loving myself?  Yes:)Is there anyone who loves me?  Does it matter?  Not anymore.  Because THIS IS IT.  And I like it:)

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twistedcaboose·
And that's where it all starts EM; loving yourself. Bravo!
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OneEvilBtch·
Nicely stated. I have always said, if you don't have tour center, everything else will be off.
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DantezINFERNO·
you have a heart of gold! and that is why I love you! great things are in store, trust me!
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CapnHun·
Deep thoughts, thanks Em :)\r
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BATMANKM·
We must love ourselves before we can love another :-) Great Blog entry EM. Sounds like you have been experiencing life, and that is not only a good thing it is the reason we are here :-) - BAT
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OldManRiver48·
It will be easy for you to move forward from here, its awesome your happy even if you dont. Congrats!
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tait·
this reminds me of the time i saw a turtle that thought it was a cat.
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medic113·
you will always have the unconditional love from offspring... \r \r one other thought, life WILL get better - Halo 3 will be released :)