Its Been Two Years Now

Yep Two years since my mom passed. She was everything to me my anchor. My dad left when I was 3 and my mom was both to me she never remarried. I have an older Sister and Brother 13 years older so they were moved out when I was growing up so it was just me and mom I am a Honest to goodness Momma's boy. This is my first blog and I thought this is what I would write about for my first one.  I was givin a blank journal at my moms memorial service by a good friend of hers. The lady told me to write in it that it would help and I never have.So I thought I would try it here my hand writing sucks anyway. I have a stack of my moms journals I have not read yet I cant get passed the first couple of pages.  Some day I will. I have read other blogs and I have seen a few that had complaints about what people are actually writing about and at first I was a little self conscious about what to write but this is my blog space and F.U. if you dont like it.

It has been a foggy couple of years life has thrown my wife and I some curves. We lost her dad to lung cancer a year after mom passed. People say things happen for a reason and I am sure in my case this rings true I just havent discovered the reson.  I have never had the blues like this. People who know me would say I am a happy go lucky guy always making jokes and having a good time and I agree.  But a song rings in my head when I hear that I think its Smokey Robinson " The Tears of a Clown " .  I have never had a death this close to me and to have two within a little more than a year has been a real test for my wife and I and my little girl who isnt so little anymore (17) . Like people say life goes on I guess but it doesnt make things any easyer. I have much more to talk about and you will see in the blogs to come. This is my first but not my last.  And its quiting time and I am going home for a cold brew a hug and kiss from my wife and little one.  They dont pay O.T. for blog's here where I work. Later to all god bell you and yours.