Tired of it all....

I've come to a realization over the weekend. And today has just made it alot clearer.

I'm tired of it all.

Not suicidal. So don't think that. This isn't a "oh Im tired of the world and all its pain" bullshit. This is a "I'm tired of my job, home, situation overall. Has nothing to do with the world. Its just me.

Tired of my job, mostly the people involved in it. I won't say I hate them. But I will say I'm not a "fan" of my co-workers.

Tired of this town...so its time for a move. But I can't afford it right now. Shitty pay. lol.

So I gotta save up to get the hell out of here. Thank God birthday and x-mas is coming up. Makes it easier to save cash. And my family knows I'm poor...so they don't expect big gifts from me.

I need to get out. I need some changes. I need something new. This isn't something thats just come up...its something thats been bothering me for a while now. I need something different. Something "good" different.

The monotonous schedule of getting up, going to work, coming home, sleeping...then waking up to do it all over is really getting to me. Trapped I guess would be a good word to describe how I feel. Trapped with no room to breathe.

My head is always going...trying to devise a plan of escape...but always coming back to that #1 problem. No money. Thats how it always is.
Ah well.

Things will change eventually. Just have to keep pinching the pennies and saving to get out of here.

That'll be a good day.

Until then...


-Gatsu OUT!