Gatsu
Shared on Wed, 10/03/2007 - 08:38I noticed something yesterday...well actually more or less something clicked and I came to a realization. I'm pushing people I know away. Not anyone on the site, but people I know personally. There are friends I've got (very few) that I've been ignoring and just not returning calls to...or avoiding their work place so I don't have to see them. That kind of thing.
Why though? with as few friends as I have already...why would I push who i do have away.
An old friend called me saturday.
Friend: "hey man...hows it goin? watcha up to tonight?"
Me: "I'm just hanging out with Jules...watchin a movie. You?"
Friend: "hey...you wanna go out and get smashed?" (his exact words.)
Me: *laughs "nah man. you know thats not my thing. I'm not a big drinker."
Friend: "ah alright. how about we hook up for lunch tomorrow then?"
Me: "Sure. sounds good. just give me a call after 11:00. I should be up."
Friend: "aight homey. talk at ya tomorrow then."
Me: "later."
Next day...I make sure I'm not awake and that if anyone calls I'm not there. Now I don't really have a problem or quarrel with this guy. So why would I ditch him like that and ignore his call. -_-....
Another buddy of mine that works at EB I've quit talking too. We've tried to hook up and hang out but stuff always got in the way or he had a last minute hang up...so I would end up just chilling out by myself. And theres someone at EB who I used to call friend...but we recently had a bad falling out. So maybe Im just avoiding one because I know the other (ex-friend) will be close by and I would be too tempted to put his ass in the ground like a tent spike.
And finally my friend that I work with. I've told him that I didnt care about the new season of Heroes because last season dissapointed me too much. Which is true...but I know he really digs the show and we'd always talk about it at work the next day. But now I'm trying to find more and more reasons to not talk to him.
WTF?!?!?
When I leave work everyday I stare at the building as I pull out and say "fuck this place" under my breath. Then when i make it home I don't bother greeting anyone...I just go into my dark room, lay on the bed and drain my brain of the events of the day.
Tired of this shit. So I'm gonna try to mend some fences today and get back in touch with some people. After I get out of work that is...fuckin hate this place. grrr.
Gatsu OUT!
Why though? with as few friends as I have already...why would I push who i do have away.
An old friend called me saturday.
Friend: "hey man...hows it goin? watcha up to tonight?"
Me: "I'm just hanging out with Jules...watchin a movie. You?"
Friend: "hey...you wanna go out and get smashed?" (his exact words.)
Me: *laughs "nah man. you know thats not my thing. I'm not a big drinker."
Friend: "ah alright. how about we hook up for lunch tomorrow then?"
Me: "Sure. sounds good. just give me a call after 11:00. I should be up."
Friend: "aight homey. talk at ya tomorrow then."
Me: "later."
Next day...I make sure I'm not awake and that if anyone calls I'm not there. Now I don't really have a problem or quarrel with this guy. So why would I ditch him like that and ignore his call. -_-....
Another buddy of mine that works at EB I've quit talking too. We've tried to hook up and hang out but stuff always got in the way or he had a last minute hang up...so I would end up just chilling out by myself. And theres someone at EB who I used to call friend...but we recently had a bad falling out. So maybe Im just avoiding one because I know the other (ex-friend) will be close by and I would be too tempted to put his ass in the ground like a tent spike.
And finally my friend that I work with. I've told him that I didnt care about the new season of Heroes because last season dissapointed me too much. Which is true...but I know he really digs the show and we'd always talk about it at work the next day. But now I'm trying to find more and more reasons to not talk to him.
WTF?!?!?
When I leave work everyday I stare at the building as I pull out and say "fuck this place" under my breath. Then when i make it home I don't bother greeting anyone...I just go into my dark room, lay on the bed and drain my brain of the events of the day.
Tired of this shit. So I'm gonna try to mend some fences today and get back in touch with some people. After I get out of work that is...fuckin hate this place. grrr.
Gatsu OUT!
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