More decisions

I had a talk with my immediate boss today, I wanted to go over what the facility manager told me and get some more feedback from him.  And more importantly, I wanted to know if I had a future in my current department.

I've mentioned this other woman in my department who's on maternity leave.  She's a coordinator.  On more than one occasion my boss had told me that when she went on leave I was getting bumped to coordinator.  She's been on leave a month now.  I'm not a coordinator.

I told him today that I felt I deserved at least the promotion to coordinator.  He told me he disagreed, I needed to show him more.  Really?  So basically my performance isn't up to par with the halfwit's?  Nice.

I am miserable at work anymore.  I really enjoy what I do, but I am tired of being disrespected.  I know a lot of you (if not all of you) feel the same way, but this is my blog so we're talking about me today.

So now what?  He told me he didn't want me to leave, he would rather I stuck in his department.  I can understand that, because as long as I'm there he can take a day off without everything going to shit.  But he also said it was my decision.  He insinuated that there could be opportunities down the line.  Maybe.  And he brought up a good point about (paraphrasing here) 3rd shift being the place careers go to die.

But here's the thing: I don't give a fuck anymore.  This guy has made so many promises to me and has kept exactly one over the last year.  I've been waiting for these promotions, these pay raises he kept telling me were right around the corner.  Never materialized.  There's so much political bullshit that goes on in there its enough to make your head explode.  The woman on leave has an infantile mentality that is akin to a high school popularity contest, and I have to sit there with her huddling up with a couple other girls (one in particular) while they whisper and look over at me, whisper some more, look over, etc.  Yesterday some of the people took this one guy out for lunch cause his girlfriend (he calls her his wife, but she's illegal so...) was having a baby soon.  This other girl (full timer) takes both my temps out with them, they're gone for over an hour.  They didn't tell me until they were headed out the door, never cleared the extended lunch...just poof.  We were busy too, and my temps get an hour lunch while I'm cutting mine short to make sure we don't fall behind.  So my boss wondered where the hell everyone was, I just told him I thought he cleared it.  He didn't, he told me he expected me to "address that shit when they get back". 

Now, this woman on leave takes hour lunches.  She claims she never takes her breaks, so she takes an hour lunch.  Apparently in her world spending and hour on the phone with her sister in law and looking up resorts to spend her next vacation at (she inherited a lot of money) don't count as breaks.  So she started taking the one girl (temp) in our department with her, and this other full time girl.  Ok, full timers are one thing...if the boss doesn't care, fuck it...but now you've set the precedent with the temps that its ok to take an hour (and usually more) for lunch with them.

So my boss started getting pissed at the temps, and I reminded him that this other woman set the precedent.  He claimed not to know anything about it.  I'm like...dude, they're gone for an hour plus/minus ten minutes EVERY FUCKING DAY for lunch...and you never noticed this?  I took an extra 15 minutes one time and caught shit for it.  So now I have to address the temps when they get back.  One of the temps is the brother of the receiving lead.  He's a nice kid, but he was forced on us. 

So I have them both come with me into the conference room, and I nicely explained that we don't get hour + lunches, we get 30 minutes.  I also explained that nobody bothered to let me know about it, and I would hope they had a little more respect than that for me.  So I get attitude and argument.  I tried to be nice, explained that hey...I know the precedent has been set and you've been led to believe its ok.  Its not.  I'm not mad, no one is in trouble...I'm looking out for you guys, because this isn't something that is looked on in a positive manner.  I get more arguments.  I'm told the other full time girl told them it was ok.  I reminded them that she doesn't work in our department, and it may have been ok for them...but again, these guys are not full time and again, nobody had the decency to let me know they were planning to be gone that long.  And no, "Tom we're going out for lunch" isn't exactly giving me a heads up.

So anyway, that got resolved.  The more I think about it, the more I hate my fucking job.

Thats enough of the blog, I don't want to type any more.  Fuck it I'm aggravated.  Maybe I'm just an incompetent prick.  Nah, I run the department quite efficiently.  Maybe I'm just a prick then.  Well, the people I worked with when I was on second still seem to like me a lot, and I never once had so much as a cross word with any of them.  Maybe I'm just not cut out for this political bullshit?  Maybe.  Maybe I just need a new job.

I think Mike James has given me the best advice so far...take the 3rd shift gig, pretty up the resume, and then start looking elsewhere.  Sorry for the downer blog, I needed to vent.  Thanks for reading.