Real Life

I feel very mixed up lately.  My anxiety/stress level has been up cuz of things I have had to deal with.  Ya know, real life....  But, on the other hand, good stuff happens, too!  I got a great hair cut today!  The Chi Lan is only a month away.  My boobs are getting bigger!  Ya!  Go figure...  Well, ya know, it's the little things that make us happy.

We'll find out soon if hubby actually had RMSF.  He took the last of his "poison antibiotics" last night.  Hopefully all these symptoms he's still having will go away now.  Blame it on the cure, not the disease.  Sorta like chemo.....  Results of the titer that was drawn 2 weeks ago should be back soon.

About the anxiety thing....  If that Chi Lan wasn't happening soon, I would be ready to travel again.  Can't do both.  And the Lan will be way cool and I get to see soooo many friends I've never met, and some I have.  I'm just having a hard time staying put right now.  I have this fantasy that there will come a day when I can just take off, drive, and gooooooo.  I want to go everywhere, see everything and everybody.  I need to spread the luv!  I believe you get back what you give.  Whew! 

One more thing....  y'all know (maybe) that hubby is just a bit older than I am.  Well, his two sons are about my age.  One is a successful lawyer in Milwaukee, the other, well, has problems.  Now, none of us have ever really considered ourselves step-mother and step-sons.  They were allll grown up before I ever met their dad.  Now we are being presented with one brother not wanting to be responsible for the other, any more.  Isn't that what brothers are for?  I am quite certain I don't need yet another stressor in my life, especially a fully grown, my age, step-son.  Oh man, I will really be in trouble if hubby decides to "spy" on me some more.  But, I feel just a bit crummy for saying a definite NO to bringing him into our life again.  My own son, who has definite problems of his own, is living up in Michigan in a group home.  Awwwww, it's just crummy.