Somethingsmartgoeshere

Sometimes you just say something stupid and you don't even know it until someone is mad at you.  Life sucks this way.  I am one of those that tries not to make anyone upset but sometimes despite my best efforts I do anyway.  I guess I am one of those that doesn't want to upset or disappoint anyone, so I am the one that ends up disappointed or sad.  I guess I prefer it this way, I'd rather see others happy.  I have always been the one that goes out of my way to make others happy even if it's not something I want.  Sometimes I make people happy even when I don't like them.  I never understood why I do this, why I put myself through misery and pain, but I always have.  It seems like it is the only way I know, to make others happy.  I try to make others happy and when I do that makes me happy!  But once in a while I do somethign stupid and make someone upset and for those rare times I am sorry.  I have always been a giver and a carring person, they say it is a trait of being a "Cancer".  I don't think that is true though because I know lots of "Cancers" and I only know one that is like me and that is my sister.  Her and I both are givers and try to make others happy, but we pay a high price most of the time.  Depression sets in and takes over, when we are together we couldn't be happier, but she lives 3 1/2 hours away from me so it's hard to see eachother.  One of these days we will live closer to eachother.  To everyoneone on the site- if I have in some way ever offended you or made you mad, I apologize for whatever I did.  Unless you are a clan member then to you I say "Suck It" lol 

Icey