wretched day

Job is so deadly dull, not looking for more $, just plain old job satisfaction. Still have lots of irons in fires, but the amount of energy it takes to keep generating your own luck really does take a toll on you. Combine that with the fact that some old buddies of mine aren't talking to me, because I choose to talk to people THEY don't approve of with the fact htat I gained back some of the weight I lost over the past month of being sick: and you have a JayCat who wants to just curl in a ball, cry and pretend today never happened.

Dam-age. What a shitty few weeks it's been.

But I guess if I lost the weight once, I can (and will) do so again. If I keep on generating my own luck, something positive will come out of it. And about the old friends  thing... that one sucks, but I can only look inwards. Did I handle things properly? maybe, but probably not. Will I learn from this? yep. So maybe the craptacularness of the last little while is really a blessing. Learn a bit, become a bit stronger.   At least that is what I tell myself.