Happiness and Saddness

           I know that it is hard to experience both, but it can be done.  Emotions are fluid, like water, they wash over you in waves.  I feel a wave of pure happiness, then a wave of intense saddness.  Its hard not being closer to my children, but I do know that Matt is an awesome father and they are being taken care of.  Then a wave of happiness washes over me.  My new found relationship, brings such joy and happiness into my life, so much that I can not contain it.  My cup overflows.  He is 30, and he wants children of his own, but he did tell me that he would be very content with just being apart of my children's lives.  He says that my kids are amazing, and he is right.  He said that if I did not want any more children, then that was fine with him.  I explained that I have had my tubes tied, but should we choose, down the road, it could be reversed.  I told him that I was not completely against the idea....but that decsion does not have to be made right now. 

           Since I currently do not have my Xbox 360, I am about to get involved with a group of friends that play D&D on Saturdays.  Junior, (my new found love), plays too.  He is extremely excited about the prospect of me being involved in something he loves, and can't wait to help me build a character.  We plan on creating my character this weekend.  I will try it and see if I like it.  He wants me to be apart of all the things he enjoys in life.  I think that is amazing.  He told me that right now that I just need to decide what race and class I want to be.  He said that there are alot of things involced in creating a character, and he doesn't want me to be over whelmed by all the information.  So I have been thinking about it and reading up on it in a book that he gave me.  I can't decide between a Human. Halfling, or an Elf. The Class is pretty easy for me, I want to be something magical, like a Sorceress.  I have played RPG's on the Xbox and on the PC, and I always play a magical character..so I am pretty sure that is what I want.  Brent, the DM, is Junior's best friend, he also is going to help me, and somehow work me into their current campaign.  I have never been real good at speaking in front of people, I hated Drama in school...and this is kind of like acting in front of a group....but I will give it my best shot...

I hope everyone had a great HUMP day.........

OXOX~Kitten