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Shared on Fri, 02/13/2009 - 09:35

Well another week has gone by. Thankfully. Its mostly been crappy. Barely squeezed out 25 hours for this paycheck. And ontop of it I think Im starting to get sick.

I've been stressing alot lately...worried about Jules, worried about the job, worried about my health. And none of it I can really do anything about. Can't afford health insurance. So if Im sick.....thats it. Im sick. If I lose my job....we dont eat.

With all the stress...I've been getting frustrated and angry alot more easily lately. And I'm tired of it. Almost to the point of just breaking down. Its hard for me not to worry...because thats been hard-wired in. But I know I can at least work on the anger part. So I've been doing some research on meditation. Haven't really started utilizing it yet, but I will.

As for how I've been feeling...its sort of like a train wreck waiting to happen. I feel like I'm leaning over some cliff and am about to lose my footing. And I don't know what to do about it. I can't afford to go see a doctor.

 

Just keep me in prayer guys. I think I really need it.


Gats

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TheDastard's picture
Submitted by TheDastard on Fri, 02/13/2009 - 09:41
Hang in there man. Something good is bound to happen.
KittenMag's picture
Submitted by KittenMag on Fri, 02/13/2009 - 09:54
sick like a cold? or something more serious? I almost never go to the doctor, until it's emergency room time. Best medicine to prevent a cold to me is twice a day pack of Emergen-C (or Airborne depending on where you live) to strengthen your immune system and give you more energy. (It's like $13 for a box of 36 at Walgreens) once you're already sick Daytime Theraflu [so it's non-drowsy] in the morning, and Nightime theraflue before you go to sleep. You want to have a lot of sleep, and most importantly drink a lot of water so your body doesn't get dehydrated if you've got a fever running. You actually want to sweat/have a fever, that's when your body fights off any intruders. Stay away from sweets and caffeine!
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Submitted by rumbagod on Fri, 02/13/2009 - 09:56
as long as you have your friends around you and the people you care about, nothing in this world can keep you down and out.......hang in there bro, it will become better!
Gatsu's picture
Submitted by Gatsu on Fri, 02/13/2009 - 10:01
@ Dastard - I wish I could believe that right now. @ Kitten - something more serious than a cold. Long history of diabetes in the family...and I've got a few of the symptoms. And I can't afford the meds if I do have it. @ rumba - thanks for the kind words. I do need to lean on my family more...I just feel like Im taking advantage.
takadud1's picture
Submitted by takadud1 on Sat, 02/14/2009 - 21:24
Gatsu Diabetes is serious shit. Maybe go to a clinic if you have one nearby. At least find out if the issues are due to diabetes or stress or whatever. Better to at least know. God speed, dude. See you online.
Lbsutke's picture
Submitted by Lbsutke on Fri, 02/13/2009 - 10:03
Looking at boobs always cheers me up... here is an extra set for you to look at. (o) (o)
Inka Cola's picture
Submitted by Inka Cola on Fri, 02/13/2009 - 10:54
I wish you the best man. Going through hard times is rough but good things happen to good people. Hang in there man!
TANK's picture
Submitted by TANK on Fri, 02/13/2009 - 11:02
Life's tough right now, just find a few things that bring you happiness and focus on them more than you focus on worrying. Your potential medical condition though is quite serious..... If you are going that way and can't afford the meds you need to take measures to protect yourself. Look up a food glycemic index and try and eat mostly foods that have the lowest ratings on that list to avoid high blood sugar spikes. Also exercise about an hour after you eat. Doesn't have to be lifting weights or going for a run. A good walk around the block after each meal will help burn energy in your cells and make them want more which come in from your blood stream reducing your blood sugar. Lastly try and cut out as much fat intake as possible. Carbs and protein need insulin to get into your cells but fat doesn't. The cell sees the fat as energy so it's less likely to want to pull sugar in from your blood if it's already digesting a fat. Keep the faith.... it's goign to be a rough year but don't let your illness progress. It can be fatal.
Caesar's picture
Submitted by Caesar on Fri, 02/13/2009 - 11:02
keep your head up gatsu
TANK's picture
Submitted by TANK on Fri, 02/13/2009 - 11:04
One more thing... if you have a family history and you consistently have the symptoms, see if you can get some meds from your family members. If they have full insuranc,e they could request more medication doses from their doc and give you the 'extra'. On the plus side, if your blood sugar remains high for a long time, your body will digest itself because it will believe that it's starving because the glucose can't be absorbed by the cells due to lack of insulin. So you'll drop weight fast. Although high blood sugar can also cause heart attacks and strokes so just watch for rapid unexpected weight loss. If that happens, you absolutely must do something about it.
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Submitted by wilderz on Sun, 02/15/2009 - 08:41
Hey Gats, Take solace in the fact that a lot of people are in the same boat. My wife and I both got laid off. She is working a temp assignment right now but will be done in a month...because we're having a baby. So long story short, I focus on today and not tomorrow because tomorrow will take care of itself. We have a great network of friends and family though, so we will pull through. Hit me up later on XBL if you want to play some L4D and chat.
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Submitted by Gatsu on Fri, 02/13/2009 - 11:19
oh trust me...rapid weight loss isn't even nearly an issue . lol. I've mostly been feeling tired, sluggish...its hard for me to focus and stay awake some mornings. My knees and back have been hurting (mostly because Im overweight). And really bad headaches.

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