uh oh

Uh oh...  The adrenalin is gone.  I'm all settled in.  Work is going ok.  The NM absolutely luvs me!  And I am in a good place.  Soooo, why do I feel the lonliness creeping in?  This happened when I left my first husband, and I considered taking him back.  NOT!  And this isn't about gilbert, either.  It's just that, I have never been alone in my entire life.  I was married to "the other one" when I was 16, had a baby by the time I was 19, and another 3 years later.  So, I have always had the kids, my family and then my 2nd husband and more family--grandkids.   I luv the independence that I now have.  I feel strong!  I make decisions based on what I think, not someone else.  I am free to come and go as I please, and not answer to anyone but myself.  Well, maybe my kitty, Keesha.  I know this is a common thing, to feel this way once the excitement has passed.  So, I will work thru it and keep busy and continue to luv life!  That's all for today.