what's on my mind

I have a few important dates coming up...my daughter's birthday is Monday, and gson, Adtler's, is a week later.  There will be a big party at daughter's house with swimming and cooking out and food, food, food.  There is a problem, tho.  Gilbert will be there.  We have not spoken for weeks.  I think I pissed him off when I told him I had seen a lawyer.  I told daughter that we have not been speaking for a while, and she told me, don't worry, there will be plenty of people there for him to talk to.  That doesn't mean he won't try to corner me!  He's done it before, and now he is angry.  Ack!  I really don't want to go.  I know, I have avoidance issues.  But, I want to see my gbabies and kids, so.....I'll go.

Other gson, Shayde, got a job!!!  w00t!  He starts tomorrow.  I don't want to tell him how first jobs go.  The amount of work is a shock, and the little money is worse, and if you don't catch on quickly, you are fired.  Yep.  I was fired from my first job, and so was Robyn.  So, it runs in the family.  Good luck, Shayde.

I know I said I wouldn't, but I am still stressing about how I am going to get the "forbidden" time off I need to go to the lan.  I am sooooo trying to keep quiet and not complain about the mandate, but it is so very hard.  Every time I hear that someone has gone to the nurse manager requesting just one day, she has said no.  That includes a mother needing time off to go to her son's graduation.  Man!  That is cold, very cold.  If the word got out that I was going to a party, I don't even want to think about it.  So, I am laying low, waiting, and my poor son is going to have yet another crisis on August 5th that will mean I have to drive to Michigan, RIGHT NOW, to save his life.  It's not that I haven't done it before, but.....  Sure, I have gone to MI many times to save his life, so to speak.  Poor boy.  We won't go into that.  But, I am worried about consequences.  I guess I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.