OMFG, I am so naive

Don't get me wrong, life is still good, but there are bumps in the road, and I had one last night.  My stbx and I had our first mediation meeting last night.  It was poor timing on my part cuz it was right after work, I was still in scrubs, and hadn't had time to get something to eat.  Worst case possible.  Is it really all about the money?????  Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Mediation is cheaper, but not cheap.  stbx would not shut up, or get to work, or even be civil, so he flapped his fucking jaws for an hour and a half at $190 an hour.  Shit!!!!!!!!  And I was the only one that got anything done, and that took about 10 minutes.  I had all of our financial records in hand, and he had nothing but his mouth.  He whined, he moaned, he said he was getting taken, he was living on social security and how hard that was.  He pays all the fucking bills.  Well, yeh!  He's living in the house!  The bills are his!  He bullied me in his usual fashion, until I finally said "give it all to him.  I don't give a shit".  The truth is, I don't.  Anything I get out of it is all bonus.  He claimed he supported me and put me thru school.  Fucking lie!  The government put me thru school.  He forgot to mention that I was the only one working and bringing in an income for over 20 years.  WTF?  He is acting like some of the women that go for everything.  That is not me.  BAh!  Oh, no offense to women in general.  Most of the time you deserve it ALL, anyways.

I am so naive....  Just a couple of days ago I said I was not worried, that I trusted him.  But, I forgot something.  He is angry!  Very angry!  And money is the most important thing to him in this world.  He can have it all and go straight to hell with it still in his hands.  And he can always burn down the house and collect the insurance.  Hmmmmm.  My original plan was to wait it out.  Well?  He IS 80 years old!  It would serve him right!!  But, I have plans.  And they don't include him.

End of rant.