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It never ends for me

GUL74

Shared on Thu, 08/04/2011 - 21:44

Im so tired I try so hard in life and all Ive done is get slapped in the face everytime. Why is this happeneing to me? I didn't deserve this I did my best at what I have to work with and it wasn'tt good enough it never was..Nothing is written in stone yet but I can see the events slowly unfolding and I have to sit in the corner and just wait for it just to be sure ..I use to be happy or blind to alot but now I just see to much and it's beating me down..Im only one man and I can only take so much..Just what did I do?? It started when I was a kid and it never stopped for me yet I tried to fight on and lost every step of the way ..I was just born to fail...Most people can see it when they look at me my parents knew it,my friends and my wife ..They all just felt bad for me and how could they not?? ..Im pathetic..it hurts so much sometimes I could just scream but what good would it do? No one would care or listen ...Mabey Im not the good guy I thought I was and was just kidding myself ..I think I use to be happy once but that was a long time ago ...I just feel so empty and lost lately distant from everything and everyone... I wish someone would stand by me they way I did , I wish someone would understand me , I wish I was happy ...I wish I didn't feel this way..I wish I wasn't alone

 

 

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mnvikesfan's picture
Submitted by mnvikesfan on Thu, 08/04/2011 - 22:16
that is some serious shit my man.. Just remember we are here ! 202play is one big happy family... remember it's ok to tell everyone to fuck off. do what makes you happy!
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Submitted by Lunatik-ZX on Thu, 08/04/2011 - 22:48
You have never been alone and youll never be lots of people feels or felt just like you ... i know it seems to be hard but life placed these things in front of ou for a reason ... cause you are strong enough to get through these... never give up cause we here willl never give up on you ... even if its tough love ... its love ... The 2o2p family is here
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Submitted by GUL74 on Thu, 08/04/2011 - 22:57
Thanks guys I usually don't say what Im feeling I try to keep it to myself and work through it ...Just feels like Im getting bombarded with everything in life lately ..Im gonna have some wellness tea and watch movie and try work through this. again thank you guys its much appreciated
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Submitted by FLEX on Fri, 08/05/2011 - 04:03
Hey man I can relate, I have been here myself. Vike's right that is some heavy shit. Remember were all here for you if you need us. I know I'm one of the new guys so I tell you through my eyes. I play with you and everyone else and I can say this is one of the best group of fucking people I have ever met face to face or over the internet and on xbox live. Everyone looks out for each other, even a heavy duty window licker like me. If you need to scream go somewhere and scream. Let the shit out man, sometimes it cleanses you. Just remember everyone looks out for each other here. If you need to lean on me feel free I'm a big guy. Take it EZ Flex
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Submitted by FreeRadikal on Fri, 08/05/2011 - 07:07
Hey Gul I know how you feel some days I feel like I got climb the hill and I get pushed back down, but you have to keep plugging away at it and never give up, the world is a wonderous and beautiful place. I recently join two groups that helped me out big time with confidence and friendship: Rotary and Toastmasters. You want to be around positive people who believe in you those groups will do it. Check them out out I encourage you.
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Submitted by KoldfrontKraig on Fri, 08/05/2011 - 07:27
I think most of us can relate Gul. I know your going through a tough time with your parents on top of other things. It gets better. Trust me on this one bud. It may take some time but it will. Talk to us when you need to. and go down on your wife
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Submitted by GUL74 on Fri, 08/05/2011 - 13:06
Thanks guys I really appreciate it I usually don't say to much about whats bothering me but lastnight wass severe bad night for me ...Its so easy to let life beat you down somedays when your feeling alone and useless ..Bur its nice to know I have all of you here to make sure that deosn't happen Thank you GUL74
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Submitted by landdon on Fri, 08/05/2011 - 16:00
Sorry you are having such bad times Gul. Life can really suck sometimes. We all know that. These problems you are having, whatever they are, will pass. You have to surround yourself with the people that you love and those love you, and lean on them. It's hard...I've been there. Try to stay strong Gul, and if you want someone to talk to you can call me. I'll send you a PM with my number. Anytime Gul.
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Submitted by Gunny on Fri, 08/05/2011 - 17:39
Gul, my brother... that is some serious shit and same as alot have already said, You got family here even when you think you dont. It WILL get better!! Get a starbucks, call me or anyone of your clan bros, getonline and play and vent at us.. and as Kraig Said, go donw on your wife!! Semper Fi Brother!!!
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Submitted by GUL74 on Sat, 08/06/2011 - 01:17
Thanks Gunny , Kraig , Landdon , FreeRad, Flex , Brian & Luna..I really appreciate it just going through a rough time for myself ..Thank you for being here for me

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