Tired...

Cynical_Hermit

Shared on Thu, 06/26/2008 - 00:45

So I am on here writing this when I should be in bed sleeping, but maybe I will feel the urge to sleep when I am done emptying my mind a bit.  This week has been difficult for me on a few levels.  The split with my significant other is final now.  I did end up canceling my cell account which also included the extra phone and line I was letting her use so who knows if I shall see the phone back or not.  I am graced with silence, but also a deep desire to somehow fix things...even though I know this is for the best. 

I have also had to stay at my grandparents the last couple of nights as the night nurse.  Needless to say I have learned that when I have to stay over there I can't sleep because they try to be sneaky and get up on their own...which I am sad to say is not something they should be doing.  They have both taken tumbles in the last couple of months that you would think they would know by now it is better to get help.  I know the struggle for thier independence is raging right now, but the alternative of us not being there and them falling and breaking a hip would be a lot worse for them in the long run.  So...as I was saying before I lost track...I have been there the last couple of nights and not been able to sleep except maybe a couple of hours after I get home in the morning...then it has been time to get to work.  So yeah..I'm tired...but I have to admit it has been fun staying up all night and gaming which I have not done in ages.  Even met some pretty funny folks on in the wee hours of the morning. 

What sucks is night time is when I got to talk to my ex...so it has also been a constant reminder that she is gone and how much I miss her.  I would like to thank my fellow clan mates though for all their support and comical antics in trying to help me through this time.  So Manaical Maruaders, to you I say thank you for your kind words and advice and all your efforts into the nights of trying to keep my mind occupied with some good old fashioned fun times and gaming.   Protein shake anyone?  lmao.

Well, guess I shall see about trying to get some much needed rest and with any luck my mind will soon begin to forget the yesterdays and how parts of those days are missing now.  Goodnight to you all and I shall see ya in the games!

Comments

Gatsu's picture
Submitted by Gatsu on Thu, 06/26/2008 - 09:38
The sandman will catch up to you and knock you out soon enough. Your body can only run so long on minimal sleep. But don't mention it man...anytime you wanna talk, just say the word. And whats great is...thanks to Xbox Live...no long distance phone bills. :)
ATC_1982's picture
Submitted by ATC_1982 on Thu, 06/26/2008 - 05:55
Good Luck with all and rest well when you can.

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