Foot in Mouth Disease: I think I have it

I seem to be adept at putting my foot in my mouth... tastes great. Yeah not so much.

So I took my friend out to a wedding shower for my best friend and then we went out for sushi & coffee. Sounds simple right? Well hang on, the rollercoaster is starting up again.

From the moment he opened the door there was something a little off in his demeanor. Since I'm the type who likes to get things out in the open straightaway, I ask what's eating at him. (Now getting a straight answer out of this guy is like trying to nail jello to a wall.) He actually cuts to the chase and says outright that my blog was totally inappropriate. He totally went off on me, not in a flashy angry temper, but more like a cold, calculated manner. (I think I'd rather have the ass chewing with some yelling, to be perfectly honest.) I am not the type of woman who cries at the drop of a hat (usually), but he challenged me today. I was wearing makeup and didn't want to run it, so both vanity and pride teamed up to stop the tears from spilling over. He's very good at making his point and maybe a little TOO good at making someone feel badly. The blog that pissed him off was the one written in French, which I know he doesn't speak. I also know that if you run my written French through a translator, you get a LOT of misinterpreted items. My French is sucky enough that it screws up the translator apparently. Words I can't spell I use a dictionary for, but grammar is not my strong suit when writing/speaking French.

So he pointed out the various issues he had with my rant, and I apologized for venting so publicly about stuff that was upsetting me at the moment, but I also explained a lot of the misunderstood things. Firstly, may I say that French is a gender-inclusive language so pronouns are sometimes not translated correctly. I actually ran my text through a translator service to see what would pop up, and it comes out sounding WAY different than my original intent!!! I was shocked at some of the things he told me tonight- he was irritated and angered by stuff that I hadn't even said (or at least the translator's version). I did apologize for some very rude remarks I made, and he was gracious enough to accept it and listen to my explanation. It didn't really improve his disposition much though. I mean it's not like we had a bad time hanging out, but there was definitely a tense air to the whole evening.

Lessons I have learned tonight: 1) just speak in plain English- less misinterpretations. 2) He has an amazing capacity to make someone feel about an inch tall, and I should remember not to put myself in that position again because it really hurt. 3) He's got a kind enough heart to forgive me for being a hothead who goes off ranting about little stuff that pisses me off, and knows that I'm working on not reacting so rashly to events that take place. I need to slow down and think about stuff before acting. 4) Wearing 4" heels to a cocktail party is fun but tiring to walk in. 5) The dress I wore to said party was too low cut for some people's taste. Whatever. 6) Stop putting him in the middle about stuff that is none of my business (although he said that can go both ways, so I'm a little mollified).

Still, I enjoy his company and hope he will be able to find time for me in the future. I'm just going to work on not having to eat my words, they don't taste that great.

Oh and I learned a new word tonight: blumpkin. I was thinking blueberry + pumpkin. Sounds tasty, right? Yeah go look it up. Well, not if you're using a work computer or around small children. Warning: it's sick.

Dating: I recently met up with someone I used to date: Matt & I called him NasKarl because his name is Karl and he is about as interesting as watching Nascar (which I find mindnumbing). He wants to date me again, and I had to issue a big NO to that one. Nice guy, boring as a brick, a nerd's nerd, and a little too grabby. Can't for the life of me think why I dated him in the first place. Anyway, I asked him to come over to fix my computer (he built it for me several months ago when we were dating) and he thought it would be a good idea to get all touchy feely... WRONG. I'm not touchy feely anyway, except in the right conditions, and this ain't one of them. The most awkward moment came when he was leaving- he went to give me a hug, and when I started to pull back he didn't let go. I'm not talking about held on a little too long- I mean didn't let go. I had to ask him to let me go. He got all weird again about wanting to date and if he'd gone on much more I'd have been forced to use my knee to crotch technique. Ick. WHY again did I ever date him? *shudder* So I'm on the lookout for something good. I met some nice people at the party Friday, but nothing worth getting a number from. One of my friends suggested I try OKCupid or something. Not sure yet. I haven't been overly thrilled with my online dating experiences, except for the one friend I made (yes, the one I manage to irritate on a regular basis), and the couple of FWB I made. Maybe I give them a call this week. ;) A girl gets hungry, ya know? TMI? Probably. Goodnight.