Not how it used to be but how it needs to be

[youtube]http://youtube.com/watch?v=CmzUER3MWTs[/youtube]

I try to never look at the past of my life, it's not who I wanted to be. It's who I was thru learned behavior. I own it, I could have changed it earlier, but got used to it, and let it become who I was. I now have what I want in my life,( 'sept for my Xbox, I get that back Monday) 33 yo. on Father's Day, and this it what I realize at 7:42am. Now I just have to change who I am to fully appreciate it. Frustration has slowly replaced anger in my life, it's easier to deal with, I can ask questions. With anger you just yell, not everyone sees this as that much of a change, but they'll learn if they see the subtle differences, if you explain the outcome you want from those changes. The wife and kids went away to see family for a day, they are due home soon I hope. I needed the alone time, I needed just a little introspective on me. Nothing makes you appreciate what's gone until it's gone, and I miss my family. I would have gone, but I didn't wanna be around 4-5 smokers and I just felt I needed the space. Didn't do much but dig some holes for my mom, went and played Uno at a friends house. Sat and just screwed off while taking time to think. Just what everyone needs to do from time to time...I'm pretty happy I did.

[youtube]http://youtube.com/watch?v=iMUFhfp46zc[/youtube]