In order to say goodbye...

What does it really take to say goodbye? Are they just words to put in your mouth and say to end a situation or a relationship? Or do you put thought and feeling into it, weigh the outcomes and finally realize that is what must be done? Ask yourself that for a moment, look at the opportunities you've had to say goodbye at. Which one are you, one to say goodbye at the beginning and then sort out the emotions and thought after all is said and done? Or do you start that process before, knowing that goodbye is something you may come to, weigh out the truth and consequences before hand? How you deal with the world and how it deals with you are can be summarized in how you greet something and how you say goodbye to it. People who are drawn to drama are people who revel in the emotion of goodbye. Obviously thoughtful people are the opposite. But can one kind of person be able to deal with the opposite side of goodbye? Can they make good decisions afterwards? I said goodbye not too long ago, I still think about it, I still feel about it. I said goodbye knowing it was coming. Knowing it was a decision I made in the best light. But knowing I said goodbye and that it hurts still and will for a very long time to come is a hard thing to deal with. I chose to say goodbye the first time, I stick by that decision. The second time was far more emotional and I can't be sure if I'll be able to sort it out and deal with it before I realize it's just easier to stick it in the goodbye box I had already started in the first place and put it on the shelf. It deserves better than that, but better and easier is a tough choice to make right now. a very hard fucking choice.

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