So here I lie in bed, thinking of the day.

I have court proceedings for temporary orders of my divorce from Heather. Which comes as such a release and such a burden that I simply cannot think. Heather seems amicable to the terms of the divorce. I expect her to be there, most likely without a lawyer, but I'm not trying to screw her over. Just the basics on my behalf (primary custody), the rest you know what I'm trying to get in the divorce, that is if you've been divorced with children involved. If you haven't, I do hope you never have to go thru it. I've been able to deal with the stress seizure free up to now, Guess we'll see what happens in the courtroom. Letting 10 years go comes at a cost, the last few I always felt like I was being blindsided at every step. I tried to save us, I wanted to love her for the rest of my life. But that wasn't going to happen, she has her priorities and I had mine. No matter how hard we tried to make them work. we never could. then there was just the silence between us, and that went on for a while, a long while. Then I found the bow on the box so to speak, seeing that I couldn't turn a blind eye anymore to the situation at hand. It answered so many unanswered questions. I know I had my part in this marriage's demise, I know what they are and take responsibility for them. So this seems to be mutually beneficial for us both. Just so I can release my emotions, and start being a single father without the guilt weighing me down. I present the song I've found that bests fit this divorce from my perspective.

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