update on Teri

Well she got her MRI yesterday, and saw the first of two Ortho Dr.s today. Needless to say the news is a bummer...

Her ACL is gone, they can't see it on the mri.

Her PCL looks a little weird, but there may be nothing wrong with it. They will not know until they go in to check it out.

Her Hamstring has either partially pulled away from the bone or completely pulled away (she was a little confused on this, but I will get more info later). So they will need to re-attach it.

Another ligament (not sure which one) is not torn or snapped, but it pulled away from the bone and took a little bit of the bone with it. The Dr. said this is actually better than having the ligament tear or completely bust. They will reattach at the bone.

The Dr. says the surgery needs to happen very soon and says complete recovery time (on average) would take 6 to 8 weeks...

Now do not get me wrong, and I may sound like an asshole for saying this. My first concern is for her well being and comfort and I am doing my damnest to make that happed. But it is taking it's toll on me. I am exhausted every night (and I have become snappy at times. Like that is going to help anything, what an asshole), I pull my normal job, then go home and do everything I need to there. Feed the minions, clean the minions, make food for Teri...by that time it is time for another feeding/removing of the poop and pee retention devices (diapers) for the minions again. Teri wants to help, but I cannot let that happen in case she trips and falls.

I know this sounds like pity party reservation for one, but I just need to vent. I have actually almost snapped a few times when the kids are crying, the food is about to burn, Teri is yelling (not cause she is mad, just that she is in another room and I may not hear her) for something, and then the god damn phone is ringing...WTF!!! Fuck it all..I feel it just building up inside and me like I am going to freak the fuck out and I know I just need to walk away for like 10 minutes to let go of the rage, but I can't. 6 to 8 more weeks of this!!! I have only had one week  of this and I am about to bring the pain on the next person that just breaths in my direction.

Well that's about it. Thanks for listening to my bitch ass whinning (I feel better writting this stuff done, but then I feel guilty for having these feelings cause other people have their own situations that are a 1000x times worse then mine and still function without bitching like me.). I just need to sack up and get it done. That is all there is to it.

All this and our wedding anniversary is on the 21st, (I had some plans for us but now...not going to happen) it is our 7th year married and 19th year togeter..My bday is this month, no biggy, just another year closer to death. And her Mom wanted us to get a family pic (her side of the family) together. But that will probably not happen.

Sorry about the typo's and stuff. And no structer or whatever..Hell it is like this all the time anyway.

I have received many pm's and notes asking if there is anything they can do, and THANK YOU ALL for the offers..Teri and I appreciate it. But their is really nothing anyone can do unless you have a working time machine/genie/magic powers.

I will let you know what the other dr. says on monday.

After Teri goes to bed tonight, I think I might have an appointment with the Captain...Captain Morgan that is. But then waking up Saturday with a hang over will not make it any better.

H3 here I come..