headaches

anxiety headaches suck,   no matter what you do to get rid of them.. they still linger.  beginning of the school, clothes bills, playing catch up to the summer spending spree we all do to entertain ,, feed all day and basically keep the kids happy over the summer months, than i have  birthdays, pta holidays its just so over whelming .. but in a good way i dont mmind it all.. but at times i just melt down. Case and point tues morning 9 am Appletree school house... Ava 2years and potty trained... owner already says.. bring her look around we'd love to have her. Great .got great review and such.. ok we go Ava is thrilled beyond words she walks in all bright and shinny and yells HI FRIENDS im   "ABA" well she proceded to make friends and have a ball they handed me paper work.. and than said When we get an opening we'll call.. WTF??? 2 days ago they where happy to have us... NOW theres no room so i proceed to bend over and whisper.. ava sweetie we need to go . . BUT  MOMMY i have friends... i know sweetie but ... they have to many kids.... we'll be back  she squeezed my cheeks and said mommy i love my new sKool please... i could have rolled up in a ball and died... now if she threw a tantrum it would have been easier.. but her saddness set me over the edge. God damn school. anyway after that i go home play with her.. spend time everyone she talked to all day was" i cant go to school theres to many kids..:( any way she'll be fine its me that is devasted. lol after that i go to the 7 yo brownie meeting where i am than told I am needed as a leader... because ive done it before and no one will... WITH good reason.. but again i look over and emily and with this distressed look says to me.. OH MOM WILLL YA WILL YAAA lol well fuk me running I guess i will. lovely. and Im also service cookie leader on top of it all.... sweet jeesus;. loos like i may be a bit busy.. why do i  do this.. school open house i signed up to help.. i actually called back and was like nope i cant that night... have plans... plans= H3 lol   heheh