A promise to myself

I made a promise to myself.  I am going to get healthy, lose weight, and be a happier person. I work in Student Activities at a small liberal arts college.  This means a lot of late night meetings, events, and other stuff that pop up because our jobs revolve around student schedules.  As a result, I have become very lax in taking care of myself.  In addition to my schedule, I would rather play video games than go to the gym, or help my wife in the garden or do other physical activities which would help me be in better shape.  Basically I am a lazy bastard. 

Despite my laziness, leading up to my wedding I had lost a tremendous amount of weight, and I had never felt better in my life.  I was doing Weight Watchers, and I think attending the meetings and having an opportunity to hear other people really helped with the weight loss.  Well due to the overwhelming success, my hubris kicked in and I thought why pay the money for WW, when I've learned everything I needed to, I can do this on my own.  So I quit weight watchers and did ok for awhile, but I have nearly put all the weight back on.  Two times I have tried to return to Weight Watchers but their programs were constantly changing it seemed like and I was not really having the success I had the first time.  I was a defeated person. 

I went to conference for Student Affairs professionals in mid-February, and one of the sessions I attended was about making time for yourself.   The person who led the conference talked about how she made a performance plan to help her with her goal of losing weight.  I had a similar goal, and created my own performance plan about how I was going to achieve this goal.  It was my plan that starting in March I was going to start going to the gym for atleast 20 min a day Mon-Fri.  I started a little late, but I went 4 out of 5 days so far this week.  I might go tomorrow because I feel like I cheated myself by skipping on Thursday.  In addition, the gym is offering a special for three sessions of Personal Training so I am going to try that out as well.   You see, I'm a weak willed person.  I need someone to hold me accountable or I usually will fail miserably.  I think this is why Weight Watchers worked well for me.  I think if I have personal trainer I will have that person there motivating me to keep going and hopefully call me out when I'm slacking. 

I'm not much of a blogger, but this could be a virtual outlet to hold myself accountable as well.  A documentation if you will of what I have been doing and successes and failures of my journey.  It is my hope that by August I will see a noticeable difference in my appearance and I will feel physcially better about myself. 

First sucess - I left work early, did some grocery shopping, then actually went to the gym and did cardio for 30 min instead of coming home and playing Warcraft.  I feel great now that my work out is done and will still have time to game!