Desire

I think that all I ever wanted was to be wanted.  To be desired, for me - for who I am.  Without getting too detailed, I've been in relationships where I just didn't feel that the person wanted me, but just wanted a person - any person would do.  That they needed a companion - someone to be present physically - but not a person to truly know intimately and love/desire still.

I don't think that's too much to ask, but it's harder to find than I originally thought.  The key for me was realizing this statement, though - I know it probably seems pretty obvious to everyone else, but haven't you ever had one of those "sun break through the clouds" moments where you suddenly see something that's been in front of you all along?

Blog by Matthew Tait Lifto