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tait

I think that all I ever wanted was to be wanted.  To be desired, for me - for who I am.  Without getting too detailed, I've been in relationships where I just didn't feel that the person wanted me, but just wanted a person - any person would do.  That they needed a companion - someone to be present physically - but not a person to truly know intimately and love/desire still.


I don't think that's too much to ask, but it's harder to find than I originally thought.  The key for me was realizing this statement, though - I know it probably seems pretty obvious to everyone else, but haven't you ever had one of those "sun break through the clouds" moments where you suddenly see something that's been in front of you all along?


Blog by Matthew Tait Lifto

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ATC_1982·
Like the Statement
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ekattan·
Almost impossible. Sometimes giving all yourself to someone can be very disastrous. I know it sounds cliche and thats why you didn't mentioned it on your blog but a soulmate is something that rarely comes along and even soemtimes doesn't work out for the best.
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TDrag27·
I didn't think your blog sounded \"soulmatey\"...But I don't really believe in that sort of thing...\r \r But it sounds like you didn't really desire the people that didn't desire you so that's probably good right? \r \r And that type of care, respect, desire, whatever you want to call it - takes time to build. You can't know someone that intimately to where you want them for them right away...So the first step is just finding someone whose company you enjoy and then judging to see if that relationship has \"potential\" for anything more meaningful. \r \r Just my thoughts...
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tait·
Thanks TDrag - good words. I actually did desire the people, and they - at times - seemed to desire me, but you know how actions speak louder than words... over time, i had to find a way to let that go
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Em·
le sigh