We got teddybear back from the hospital and life has returned to some semblance of order. Actually, it feels somewhat like I am living in a parallel dimension. The somewhat chaotic routine of our family life has returned but underneath the surface things feel very different. Something happened to me emotionally on the inside from having teddy almost die on me, not sure if it is good or bad. For now though, I will take the gift of life I have been given and try and make the most of it.