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For anyone interested in Nikolai Tesla, Otis Carr, free energy, or smotherd technology.

For anyone interested in Nikolai Tesla, Otis Carr, free energy, or smotherd technology.

she came and got her stuff yesterday. tried to when i was at work, but i'd changed the locks already. she would have left a bunch of stuff behind, but i made her take as much as i could before she jumped in the truck and bolted. i wanted to be sure she took the scrapbook i'd asked Ice to make of her love notes to me, to remind her of what was and could have been. i don't know at what point the demon took her and my best friend and lover decided i was just something to be used. i did nothing but love and adore her, and i didn't even get an "i'm sorry".

she came and got her stuff yesterday. tried to when i was at work, but i'd changed the locks already. she would have left a bunch of stuff behind, but i made her take as much as i could before she jumped in the truck and bolted. i wanted to be sure she took the scrapbook i'd asked Ice to make of her love notes to me, to remind her of what was and could have been. i don't know at what point the demon took her and my best friend and lover decided i was just something to be used. i did nothing but love and adore her, and i didn't even get an "i'm sorry".

I've fooled myself long enough, your silence speaks for you, it's time to let go.

You asked me to be your center, to ground you, and I failed. I'm truly sorry for that.
I couldn't be there all the time, and the demon slipped in. The demon that comes in powders
and pills and promises a good time. I've seen this demon many times, I know it's ways. It's
taken friends and family from me, and now the woman I truly loved. The woman I was prepared
to spend my life with. I hope some part of that woman still lives, but I know the demon has

I've fooled myself long enough, your silence speaks for you, it's time to let go.

You asked me to be your center, to ground you, and I failed. I'm truly sorry for that.
I couldn't be there all the time, and the demon slipped in. The demon that comes in powders
and pills and promises a good time. I've seen this demon many times, I know it's ways. It's
taken friends and family from me, and now the woman I truly loved. The woman I was prepared
to spend my life with. I hope some part of that woman still lives, but I know the demon has

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For the last year and a half or so, I've been seriously lagging in my creativity. A good part of that problem I'd say has been the all-consuming WoW. Now, I'm not blaming the game, I made the choice to play it, it's been a fun romp, and I really liked being able to adventure with my friends virtually, since I'd have given myself a heart-attack if I ever had to run as much in real life as I did the 1st 40 levels. My problem here is the time investment. I spend so much time playing, my other interests have fallen by the wayside.

For the last year and a half or so, I've been seriously lagging in my creativity. A good part of that problem I'd say has been the all-consuming WoW. Now, I'm not blaming the game, I made the choice to play it, it's been a fun romp, and I really liked being able to adventure with my friends virtually, since I'd have given myself a heart-attack if I ever had to run as much in real life as I did the 1st 40 levels. My problem here is the time investment. I spend so much time playing, my other interests have fallen by the wayside.