pearly_54's blog

My stress level has decreased from a 10+++++/10 to about 7/10.  That is tolerable.  Move in date is a week from Saturday.  I am still looking at furniture, but think I have decided on a minimum of stuff that I like.  I won't need a lot.  I don't take up much space....  It is a wonder and an adventure for me to think about being alone and what I will do.  Will I cook?  If so, what???  I have washer and dryer included (a nice perk) so I will have to learn to do laundry again.  I know, but that is only one of the control issues in my current household.  There are many more.  He thinks he has t

My stress level has decreased from a 10+++++/10 to about 7/10.  That is tolerable.  Move in date is a week from Saturday.  I am still looking at furniture, but think I have decided on a minimum of stuff that I like.  I won't need a lot.  I don't take up much space....  It is a wonder and an adventure for me to think about being alone and what I will do.  Will I cook?  If so, what???  I have washer and dryer included (a nice perk) so I will have to learn to do laundry again.  I know, but that is only one of the control issues in my current household.  There are many more.  He thinks he has t

Yesterday anxiety was so high I couldn't remember my email address.  Or my phone number.  Or much of anything.  Yes, I put a deposit down on that loft.  It is done.  I have 2 weeks to get it together, then.......

Yesterday anxiety was so high I couldn't remember my email address.  Or my phone number.  Or much of anything.  Yes, I put a deposit down on that loft.  It is done.  I have 2 weeks to get it together, then.......

First of all, I want to say to my clannies, I luv you guys!  I feel the good vibes and support from all of you, and I really appreciate it.  And, for the rest of you, thanks so much for all you are doing to help me thru this.  Also,  I will continue to kill Banshee's, but if they are named "Dave" I'll run!

First of all, I want to say to my clannies, I luv you guys!  I feel the good vibes and support from all of you, and I really appreciate it.  And, for the rest of you, thanks so much for all you are doing to help me thru this.  Also,  I will continue to kill Banshee's, but if they are named "Dave" I'll run!

What?  No, not that!  I mean my current situation with the decision making and all.  I brought home boxes last night, and left them in the car.  I know.....  But, I need to think this out a little better, and will talk to my shrink this morning.  Yeh, she supports me.  I will talk it out....what to do, how to do it, etc.  Yes, it does sound like I've made up my mind.  I guess I have.  I just need a gentle push and lots of support.

What?  No, not that!  I mean my current situation with the decision making and all.  I brought home boxes last night, and left them in the car.  I know.....  But, I need to think this out a little better, and will talk to my shrink this morning.  Yeh, she supports me.  I will talk it out....what to do, how to do it, etc.  Yes, it does sound like I've made up my mind.  I guess I have.  I just need a gentle push and lots of support.

I am not sure about my plans for the near future.  They seem to have changed dramatically when I finally told hubby who I was making the afghan for.  It is done, btw.  All hell broke loose last night and ended with the words "why don't you just keep on going, then".  I was basically silent, as usual, and he just stormed out.  WTF?  I didn't realize that as I was working on it he was getting angrier and angrier, cuz he thought he knew what was going on and with who.  He is soooooo wrong!  But, it doesn't matter.  He doesn't trust me, and I don't care, so I was apartment hunting on the web ag

I am not sure about my plans for the near future.  They seem to have changed dramatically when I finally told hubby who I was making the afghan for.  It is done, btw.  All hell broke loose last night and ended with the words "why don't you just keep on going, then".  I was basically silent, as usual, and he just stormed out.  WTF?  I didn't realize that as I was working on it he was getting angrier and angrier, cuz he thought he knew what was going on and with who.  He is soooooo wrong!  But, it doesn't matter.  He doesn't trust me, and I don't care, so I was apartment hunting on the web ag