pearly_54's blog

I always like to go to the gym. I get to take out my frustrations on the machines and stay healthy at the same time! I listen to my tunes for motivation. Problem is, I can't make them loud enuf so that I don't "think". I have said before, I think too much. Been doing it again. One of the tunes I listen to is "Dancing with Myself" by Billy Idol. Now, I thought that had a certain meaning.....then I saw The Video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xco3-pA8168

I have a B-day coming up next month.  When do they stop?  Oh, yeh, I know......   I have always imagined that I was the very oldest gamer in the entire world, but now I know that is not true.  This website has introduced me to a wide variety of people, including some really old farts!    I know I am in the minority, simply because of my age and being female.  So what?  Some days I feel really, really old, and others....well, I think I am getting younger instead of older.  Is that possible?  I have to admit that

I have a B-day coming up next month.  When do they stop?  Oh, yeh, I know......   I have always imagined that I was the very oldest gamer in the entire world, but now I know that is not true.  This website has introduced me to a wide variety of people, including some really old farts!    I know I am in the minority, simply because of my age and being female.  So what?  Some days I feel really, really old, and others....well, I think I am getting younger instead of older.  Is that possible?  I have to admit that

I got called off of work today.  Wow!  This is cool!  I have been doing exactly whatever I feel like all day long, which is basically nothing or gaming, whatever.  Hubby is "out" doing his thing.  All alone.......

I have emailed Michelle, but not called her.  Hmmmm.  If I have a goal of getting out with a friend, it will be Michelle, and I will HAVE to do it.  Soon.  I will.

I've been in my cave most of the day.  It's nice here.  Quiet.  By myself.  Just me and my computer.  Uh oh.......

I got called off of work today.  Wow!  This is cool!  I have been doing exactly whatever I feel like all day long, which is basically nothing or gaming, whatever.  Hubby is "out" doing his thing.  All alone.......

I have emailed Michelle, but not called her.  Hmmmm.  If I have a goal of getting out with a friend, it will be Michelle, and I will HAVE to do it.  Soon.  I will.

I've been in my cave most of the day.  It's nice here.  Quiet.  By myself.  Just me and my computer.  Uh oh.......

I have been reading up on loneliness a bit lately. I have found that it is a feeling of "something missing" in your life and may be related to depression or social anxiety. Often affairs, breakups and abuse become the result of the awareness that "something is missing". That is so very sad. Now, I have felt lonely many times, and it has become a chronic thing. Yes, i have been known to be depressed, but I am not feeling that way now. But, social anxiety, on the other hand, is a huge problem with me.

I have been reading up on loneliness a bit lately. I have found that it is a feeling of "something missing" in your life and may be related to depression or social anxiety. Often affairs, breakups and abuse become the result of the awareness that "something is missing". That is so very sad. Now, I have felt lonely many times, and it has become a chronic thing. Yes, i have been known to be depressed, but I am not feeling that way now. But, social anxiety, on the other hand, is a huge problem with me.

I am sooo ready to escape, again. I have discovered that Chapel Hill to Ottawa is a mere 830 miles. Wow. Then from there to Toronto another 450 miles. And the other one, I'm not sure exactly where he is in Canada. And it is cold up there. Brrrrrr. I have thought about flying and renting a car. The NE LAN is in April in Manchester, NH. I wonder..... There are so many, and spread all over the place. My friends I've never met. Some I feel I know as brothers or sisters, others, I'd just like to get to know. And there's Oregon. I now have 2 I'd like to visit there. 2 in Texas. California!!!!

I am sooo ready to escape, again. I have discovered that Chapel Hill to Ottawa is a mere 830 miles. Wow. Then from there to Toronto another 450 miles. And the other one, I'm not sure exactly where he is in Canada. And it is cold up there. Brrrrrr. I have thought about flying and renting a car. The NE LAN is in April in Manchester, NH. I wonder..... There are so many, and spread all over the place. My friends I've never met. Some I feel I know as brothers or sisters, others, I'd just like to get to know. And there's Oregon. I now have 2 I'd like to visit there. 2 in Texas. California!!!!